URNotAlone

Attractions and Relations...

December 31st, 2007 5:25 am MST

-- Attractions and Relations... Having interacted with dozens of girl over the last week I am trying to get a handling on why it is SOOOOOOOooooooooooooooo attractive to me.  I have read a few columns where others have espressed the same, and I may have found the answer... for me at least. *** -- Therfore... Now, I am not blaming my MOM, as some people might think... but it does go back to my parents on many levels.  My Dad was practically an orphan, and didn't know how to be a man.  My MOM, had a tough Irish mother and wasn't raised to be very femmenine.... Lack of emotional attachment from one, and a low feminine image from the other lead me to desire the ultra femme contact I find here. *** -- NSA... I would like to think 'NO Strings Attached' exists (NSA for you CraigsList folks), but there is always some attachent... yesterday a sweet young thing wanted to jump in the car and ... well you can guess the rest.  That worries me... The girls I would actually consider meeting, or even talking to on the phone, I have had several conversations with... swapped eMails... etc.  I don't think there is such a thing as NSA for me... which is why I am very careful about meeting.  Sharing a coffee at Starbuck's is all I will commit to with anyone... because I am going to have at least one, or two string knotted up in there some where. *** -- Women... I love women... the look... the smell... the touch of a woman.  But, keeping things in perspective is difficult.  As I have tried to explain "I am not free."  Glue any labels you want on that one... LTR's, Commitments, whatever... If you have suffered this far in my little note I hope you have a little better understanding about me.  ***If you have not read it through... shame on you. HAHAHAH  Maybe I will pour my guts out here in my Journal and help fix my self... NAHHH!  I like flirting to much... If anyone want to talk to me about this stuff... you are more than free to eMail me...Take care... Bert...