URNotAlone

Need to get out

September 21st, 2006 10:50 pm MDT

Since I just recently started dressing again on a regular basis,I want to finally start exploring my femininity as much as I can,not too exclude my male side,but I've just got to learn about my inner girl and grow and develop that part of me more and more,like I never did before. I've even been decorating my house(I live alone by the way) with more feminine pictures and objects-flowers,nick nacks,and it really feels nice. The room feels better to me. And tonite I looked up "how women think" on the internet and found a very good article. I want to integrate feminine thinking and characteristics into my personality,even when not dressed. But one thing is so important.I've got to get out. And I want to pass. I know we all do. I'm lucky I'm small and my face is ok. But at my age,my face does'nt really pass anymore. I'm getting some kind of face lift treatments-intense light or something. But it takes a few months. In the meantime my feeling is if I cant' pass,well that seems to spoil the experience for me. Am I wrong? Can I enjoy being among people and have some of them give me shocked or amused expressions? Well I'm open to hearing anybody's thoughts or experiences. Hugs to everybody!

Davy