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We are Evil?
Tammie Lynn Huber January 1st, 2009 6:45 pm MSTSo now, at age 51, because I chose happiness instead of sadness, life instead of suicide and although I am a good person, I love all people, regardless of any differences...as I have always, I am honest, I have never taken drugs, never been drunk, never committed theft, have always reached out to help anyone that I could...now, some people, the Catholic church and others consider me evil and a lessor human?
Even though I am still a hard working individual and pay taxes, I am not aloud to marry my one true love, another male to female transsexual?
I can be fired from my job in most states, denied medical care, and the federal government and anti-LGBT Churches, condones the violence against us.
Is that the actions of a good government and a righteous church?
The pope says if we are aloud to marry that the human race will eventually die out because humans will cease to propagate, what?
Two things, first; we are going to overpopulate this planet into ruin or kill it by other means, second; LGBT have been here since the beginning of man like I said and look how the we have grown in the past 4000 years.
We are no threat to any one's existence, we only want the same rights that every human being deserves, and yes, I fight for everyone who needs help gaining equal rights, not just our community.
Would they practice some type of genocide if given the chance?
Do they condone the violence perpetrated against the LGBT community?
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i like writing in my journal.
Spirit December 18th, 2008 1:21 pm MSTI'm making this entry to see iif journals are working, again. I realli like writing here because I can dump out my thoughts and then read them and see if what i'm feeling is worthwhile or not. i've killed about 7 entires after i re-read them. i'm proud of this because, to me, it seems to mean that i'm still able to see it when i'm not thinking clearly about things. at least, most of the time :)
anyhoo, i hope this makes the post (unlike the 3 GOOD ones that also got dumped 'cause i didn't know journals were broken) and i hope to be spinning delicate yarns of lteral gossamyr again, soon.
As always, i'm veri thankful for the presence of my URNA friends and i always look forward to spending time, physical or virutal, with you all. Best of Luck and Happiest of Holidays to all with a dash of compassion and empathy from Sue.
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OK, who's oppressing who?
Spirit December 15th, 2008 2:30 am MSTone of my friends told me today that GGs and TGs often don't like associating with her because she's a CD. I don't understand why that should be.
It seems to me that lots of people who are vociferously conscious of their rights, and constantly concerned with how they are treated by the mainstream, immediately turn around and segregate our genre when given the opportunity. It's like New England all over again: "We MUST have freedom to be ourselves! Now Be Like Us Or Else..."
I have never been ill treated because i'm not TG. At least, I don't think i have. people have, on occasion, ignored my salutations. That kind of thing makes me sad because i always reply, even if just to say sorri but i'm not realli interested.
But these are my own ethics. They aren't rules, and i have no right to expect everybodi else to act as i do. so i try to put myself in their place and sometimes it makes me feel some empathy and then i feel better. Sometimes it doesn't work, but i always try it.
If somebody is annoying, if they behave poorly, or bore you, or upset you for some reason, then, absolutely ignore them. after all, it's much better than a screaming match.
If, however, you're ostracizing another girl just because she isn't "serious" enough for you, then you'd better think a bit before complaining that people discriminate against you. Turnabout, as they say is fair play.
We all need to contemplate the entire meaning of the word bigot and then take a long look in the mirror. Sometimes i don't like what i see, but i always look.
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A day to dress.....?
Sakura The Cutie December 11th, 2008 12:35 pm MSTHey gurls. So have something that I want to tell you all about. So two days ago (Tuesday) I didnt have school so I was home alone all morning long. This was the perfect chance for me to dress, so that morning I went into my moms room to find what I wanted to wear but I stopped and frozed before reaching my moms room. I started not feeling like dressing. Then I just went back in my room and started thinking how like its now so boring to dress alone. I've only dressed by myself since I only can do it when no one is home. Its so boring now to dress alone since I can't really share it with someone else in the room with me. I've always wanted to dress with another tgurl or a gg, but that hasn't happened yet and probably won't happen for a long time. So to all of you gurls reading this, should I be feeling and thinking this way? I don't know if its a bad thing to do?
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Yahoo Mail Problems
Sakura The Cutie November 29th, 2008 5:16 pm MSTHey gurls, I was just wondering if anyone who uses yahoo mail had any weird problems today on it, because I've been.
When I sign in on the yahoo mail page I get this page saying like Cannot open site, or like cannot get to server but something like that, but I tried again and it signed me on to the homepage of my mail account but when i clicked on indox, those weird messages came up
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My Day Out
Sheila Michelle Wren October 31st, 2008 3:09 am MDTWell yestrday was my 2nd time I ever wnt out fully dressed to the mall. I decided that I would take a coupel vaction days and do nothing but dress those days. So Kim and I went to the mall and had lunch and did some window shopping.
I just loved it got a few looks but for the better part we had a great time. I felt so good walking down the concouse of the mall acting just like a girl walking and talking to eachother.
walked in to payless and was greeted by the person working there. She said ( If you ladies need any help just ask ) it felt so good.
then when we were done took a little ride into dayton then back to the home area were we proceded to a local bar where we went in and had a couple beers and then went home.
But I tell you that after all the time of sitting home and being dressed that there is nothing that can make you feel more alive then actually getting out into public and just acting like you belong.
Then on the way home we were driving down I75 when two guys noticed us and started flirting with us as we were going down the road . They kept waveing to us and blowing us kisses. God if they had motion us to pull over I may have. You never know maybe we could have got some free drinks from them if they wanted to take us out for a quik drink.
But I plan on getting out more like that in the future. I alrady go out alot but that is for walks in the morning and we also go out to our favorite bar ( Old Street in monroe ) But i really like the being out in the public. Like I said it was good to fell like I belonged there.
Well talk to you all soon. And hope to see you at the party in November.
HUGS and KISSES till then.
Sheila M.
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Pics
Jennifer Lynn Mills October 24th, 2008 8:08 am MDTMany of you have ask why I don't have more pics. Well, there are basically 2 reasons for this: One is pretty simply; my wife. My wife has never really accepted this part of my life. Yes, she tired, or so I hope she did. At one time I have a very nice collection of pics of all types (lingerie, wedding, casually, dressy) you name it. Even some I transferred to DVD's when I was in my teens and early 20's Well, my wife snooped around one day and found all my pics on my computer and deleted them. Then took the extra effort to find the master DVD's and destroyed those too. Needless to say I was devastated. This happened probably about 2 years ago, and for reasons to be explained just never got around to taking more. The other is a bit more complex, and after looking back now, I wondered why it stopped me. Shortly after this happened with my wife, I was driving home from work one morning. I work a midnight shift job and it was shortly before sunrise. While driving home, I was blind-sided by a car blowing thru an intersection. My car was totally and I thought I was too. Other than being just badly bruised, I also had a broken leg; or so I though. The damage was so severe, they couldn't save it and have to take it right below the knee. This is just one point in my life where I didn't care about anything anymore. I played baseball in highschool and college and had always taken pretty good care of myself. Now, I felt worthless. I didn't want anyone to see me like this and sure dind't want to dress up anymore as I always loved showing off my legs and never wore pants or slacks as Jennifer. Although I started using an artificial leg, it wasn't the same and I stopped dressing altogether. It was only thru the concern of a close friend (who didn't even dress), that got me "back on my feet" and convinced me it was on the inside that mattered more. I started dressing again, but still have a hang-up of letting others see me dressed with only one leg. Maybe I am acting silly. I know I am not the only one like me around, but I hope others understand. I've been accused of being a fake because I only have this one pic. I know perhaps I should have shared this earlier, but does it make a difference how many pics a person has? What about those girls that are so closeted they have no pics and can't risk taking any? Any they fakes? I hope others can understand now why I avoid the issue of pics or keep saying I will get to it, etc. If they can't understand, I hold no judgement. And for those that I wouldn't chat with because they have no pics, I understand perhaps how they feel[3 comments]
Our Commitment Ceremony
Tammie Lynn Huber September 24th, 2008 2:10 pm MDTCommitment Ceremony of Tammie Huber & Debi Johnson
3pm, Saturday, September 20th, 2008
PRELUDE & PROCESSIONAL
OPENING WORDS & PRAYER BY REV. MELODY
On behalf of Tammie and Debi, I welcome you to this celebration of their commitment to each other. We are here to affirm their love of one another, the love and support of other individuals, and their community. Thank you for choosing to spend this day in celebration with them.
Let us pray: Loving Creator, hear our prayers for Tammie and Debi, who today are making a promise to live their lives together in love and respect. Give them your blessing, and bring them into the fullness of a loving relationship of commitment and covenant. May they be living witnesses to Your divine love in the world. Amen.
DECLARATIONS OF INTENT/CONVOCATION
We are gathered here today to celebrate love in the lives of Tammie and Debi. As a part of this celebration the community gains understanding of their intentions and witnesses their vows.
Tammie and Debi, the making of vows and the commitment of two souls to one another is a great leap of faith. It involves caring and giving, learning to share one’s life with another person, forgiving, and enjoying the love and meaning which can be found together. It enables you to share your desires, longings, dreams and memories, and to help each other through uncertain times. It provides mutual support and stability in which you may flourish as a couple and as individuals. It provides a focal point for your friends and your extended family who are gathered here today.
This ceremony is a beginning, not an end, of a journey that will require your constant attention . . . my prayer for you is that you might never take the love you have found for granted in any way and that you will work to grow it more and more deeply as the years go by.
CHARGE TO THE COUPLE
Tammie and Debi, the covenant you are about to make with one another is intended to join you together in a relationship so intimate and personal that it profoundly affects your whole being. It offers you the hope and the promise of a love that is true and mature. However to attain such love, you will have to commit yourselves to each other freely, without reservation, and gladly for the sake of a richer and deeper love together. To attain such love you must each respect the freedom, individuality and dignity of the other, not seeking to change or re-shape the other into your own image or likeness, but rather each of you seeking to change and re-shape your own self in order to give that self more completely to the other in authentic love.
In the presence of community we ask, is it your intention to love and honor each other and share your life together?
Will you stand by each other, at all times, giving respect to one another?
Will you strive to understand each other’s needs and nurture the other as an individual?
Will you cherish and nurture your shared love, now and for eternity?
And… to those who have gathered, will you who witness these vows, do all in your power to support and uphold this union in the years ahead? If so, will you answer, “We will.”
And to those who have gathered, are you willing to join Tammie and Debi, as they take their commitment to social justice for all and the Creator’s all inclusive love out into the world? If so, will you answer, “We will.”
THE VOWS
I now invite you to turn to one another and joining your hands to share your vows.
BLESSING AND EXCHANGE OF RINGS
Holy One, by your grace, send your blessing upon these rings. May they be to Tammie and Debi a symbol of your unending love for them and their own eternal love for each other. May they serve as reminders of the covenant of love and faithfulness they have made to one another this day. Amen.
I bless you with this ring
as a gift and sign of my love for you.
May we always be held together
within the joy, faithfulness, and trust it represents.
I bless you with this ring
as a gift and sign of my love for you.
May we always be held together
within the joy, faithfulness, and trust it represents.
PRAYER OF BLESSING
Let us pray. Most compassionate Creator, we give you thanks for your gracious love and for you consecration of this relationship of love. Through your power, we ask that you pour out the abundance of your blessing upon Tammie and Debi. Defend them from harm. Lead them into prosperity and peace. Let their love for each other be a seal upon their hearts, their minds and their Spirits. Bless them in their work and in their companionship; in their sleeping and in their waking; in their joys and in their sorrows; and in their journey though life together. Amen.
SEALING OF VOWS
Tammie and Debi, for as much as you have given yourself to each other with your vows and have declared your love for one another with these rings, in the presence of the Holy One and all who are here, and by the authority invested in me by God and Metropolitan Community Churches, I joyfully pronounce you now and forever joined in Holy Union. Those who God has blessed, let no person, government or church seek to separate.
You may now seal your vows with a kiss.
INTRODUCTION OF COUPLE
I present to you Tammie and Debi wedded by vows, by the exchange of rings, and by our Creator
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Beltain and the joys of spring
Spirit September 14th, 2008 7:27 pm MDTi'm beginning to be happy again and it's nice. For awhile, my job was just awful. it seemed like there was a beautiful light at the end of the tunnel ... attached to Thomas the Tank Engine's Gnasty drunken dad and heading strait for Sue. i got to the point where i did NOTHING except work. i didn't go out anymore. i stopped eating,etc etc etc. I've been through rough projects before but this was just unbelievable. some misguided individual even tried to cover his butt by firing me in the darkest hour (it didn't work, but he sure gave it the 'ole college try). i forgot who sue was. and now it's over. i've been reading a lot of Dalai Lama, lately. one of the things he says, that i'm learning to agree with, is that western people are not objective about suffering. we see starving children and think, "my god how awful." yet, we don't seem to see anything tragic about our medicine cabinets full of Zoloft, Sominex, Vivarin, Prosac ... etc etc etc. the Lama says many of the people we consider to be suffering actually enjoy life more than we do because they're not so stressed out all the time. now i'm thinking of Solzhenitsen (who just died BTW. Fair Winds, Alecsander...) i'm thinking about ivan denisevitch living in the gulag in total poverty and total slavery. i'm remembering how they were never able to take his humanity and his smile no matter what they did to him. i sort of felt that way, like i was in the gulag. but i lost my smile. and now i've got it back. i hope the next time i get mulched (because it surely will happen) i can hold up like ivan denisevitch and smile my way through it. until then i'm sharing this smile just as much as i can because it's the good memories that get you through the hard times. you guys saved my life :) thanx luv Sue Sue recommends the following bathroom reading: Ethics for the New Millenium by Dalai Lama, and One Day in the life of Ivan Denisevitch by alecsander Solzhenitsen. They are both small books but they make me feel good when i read them[1 comment]
"the hells angels" - YAAAAWWWWWNNNNN
Spirit August 23rd, 2008 4:29 pm MDTSo, the other day i'm in a trashier TG chatroom (URNA is THE BEST, but sometimes, wellll i have e-needs 2, y'know <giggle>), and this guy PM's me. No profile, no stats, but his chat handle is like "bad biker dude" or something in that vein... I'm bored, and maybe a little pent up, so i think, "ok, why not? this is what i came in for, anyway..." Well, i'm thinking we might exchange a few pleasantries and then see where it goes. Uh-UH, stud boy fires off with, "what are you wearing right now, slut? - Take it off! ALL of it." Those of you who know me are grinning, right now. anyway, i figure i'll try it out, so here i am playing, "little wimpy weak willed girlie" And, to be honest, it was kind of fun for awhile. He thought i was cute and seksi. We all love that kind of thing, right? He wanted me to grab a "_" (HA! i barely knew what it was, never mind owning one) and use it on my little "_". Well that didn't sound either romantic or pleasant, but i rode along with it (No No I didn't actually DO IT . I wasn't really turned on by this point) but it just wasn't working. figured i'd give it one last try. I say, "hey, listen, motorcycle GUY. My name is Sue, not slut, and by the way, what's yours?" some kind of diatribe about motorcycle gangs and one percenters and Harley davidsons and what happens to disobedient sissies and yak yak yak. so i dumped out, but it got me thinking. Here's this guy who's supposedly some big tough hell's angel type, full of swagger and all. Funny how he's too scared to come up with a name, though... I've never bought into the "tough Guy" mentality. I've been priviledged to have a few friends who are pretty well equipped for life. They are, to a one, gentlemen, discrete, and understated. They blend in. They don't strut like peacocks (or is it pea cocks? :) Now, i can't claim to know any "real" biker gang guys, or, for that matter, gangstas, etc etc etc (not singling out bikers). I'm basically a corporate girl with a few interesting stories and penchant for writing. But i know what i like. I really realli like confidence. and i'm pretty sure these tough guy types lack it. i guess i should apologize to the hell's angels, too. it was just the first biker gang that came to mind. sorry guys, you're not realli my thing, but no H/A's have bothered me so it isn't fair for me to throw a rock at youse :) maybe i should've said, "Black Widows" HA! end of ramble peace and love :)[1 comment]
Finally !!,,I did it,,Face Pics
Deanna Rachel August 23rd, 2008 7:03 am MDTI finally came to my senses and took some full body shots..with clear face pics. Please excuse the novice make-up, I am working on it. Any Gurls wanna help me practice.?..hope ya like em'..leave some comments..plz..thx,,Kisses,Deanna[Comment on this post]
Life a year ago
Jan July 22nd, 2008 8:10 pm MDTLast weekend I had time to think about how my life has changed. I spent most of the weekend doing nothing but playing video games and surfing the web. Not because I truely wanted too but because I had nothing better to do. A year ago this would not have bothered me. I did that very weekend.
It has been almost a year, sence I went out for the first time. A lot has change in that year. Most for the better. That first T-party was great. I have done so many things that I would have never done before. It's been great.
A year ago I just live to get to the next day. I don't care about life. I just wanted to through it. Now I do look forward to life. I look forward to doing more on the weekends then just sit around the house. I have more and better friends then I never had in my life.
Of course I have to thank two people for that. Thank you you two.
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Halting the Flood
Christina Madchen July 4th, 2008 8:18 am MDTSo, it's been a bumpy three months--dumped, flooded out of my home twice, and spending way too much time with architects, lawyers, claims adjusters, contractors, subcontractors, and mitigation contractors. Happily, I'm finally in that place that gets me back to just rolling with it. I'm in a city I love, after all, I'm making new friends, plus I've got a dog so pretty she stops traffic. Coming back from today's workout with her in the park on a glorious Fourth's morning, it was easy to come to the realization that whatever the tedious logistical difficulties, life never really sucks, certainly not for very long. In gamer terms, it's the RPG, the best imaginable ever, with no virtual nothin'. So, I'm looking forward to having some fun tonight, and getting back to all the writing I should be doing, and just relaxing and enjoying my lot. Who knows what the next day will bring?
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tweak the world and work gets a little easier.
Spirit June 19th, 2008 5:47 pm MDTI'm in Boston and I really love it, here. Lately, though, work has been oppressive - i haven't even had the chance to go out because many of my friends who never knew me as Sue DO know I have a sweet apt and have invited themselves up <giggle>. I realli don't mind because I love my friends and I love company, But it's all been ... well ... stressful. So I decided to chuck it all for a while and SHOP!! Surprisingly, I didn't buy anything pretty. Instead, I bought music. It was a good choice. here's what I bought: Bloom (SarahMclachlan. Yes, yes I AM a girl, after all <giggle>), two disk "best of" Tori Amos (I luv her voice so much), Turn Around (Jonny Lang - RIDICULOUSLY good blues), Something equally bluesy by Keb Mo (left the CD in Apt so I don't know the name), a collection of Romantic Period guitar music, Bach's collected Toccata and Fugues (listening to it now - it makes me feel like a snowfalke in a blizzard <shivering happily>). Iraq (Black47 - please no political comments about this one. The Irish are among the most musical of cultures, and I love hearing lyrics that don't make soldiers sound llike war mongers. If you've been involved with that kind of stuff you'll remember things when you play it. You should play it anyway.) Time Out (Dave Brubeck Quartet. REALLY classic Jazz.I have an LP from my dad at home but people keep "borrowing" my cd :) ), Now I'm looking at this STACK of CDs in Border's (wound up there after despairing in the music section of WalMart), thinking, "Crap this is gonna be expensive." But, as I passed the bargain table I still had to pick up a new copy of "legend" by Bob Marley and, for a realli cute surprise, Eddie Brickell n the New Bohemians! I was hopscotching through the aisles when I found that one :) I get back to the office, pop Jonny Lang into my portable and, well, it was like, "No. no way. This won't work." So Today I went out at lunch and bought a Klipsch satellite / subwoofer PC system. I am now FLOATING on a glorious sea of sound. everybody else has gone home so I'm shattering windows with the glorious sounds of pipe organ and JS Bach. I can't describe how happi I am now. I don't care if I work all night (which is good because I might be ... ) Guys and dolls, BUY this damned Klipsch system! it's $160 but it makes a PC sound .. well.. KLIPSCH. OMG it's good! Thanks for listening I only wish I could REALLY share the music. Close your eyes and imagine Heaven and Hell shoved into a cuisineart. The image comes close, but the reality is more intense. Love, and Compassion (which is Love after her acne clears) , Suzi ps- of course it's one more heavy thing to shlep outta here when i head south again. YUK florida :([3 comments]
does everybody else sometimes feel this way?
Spirit June 1st, 2008 10:17 am MDTI really wish, sometimes that I wanted to be a 24/7 girly girl. If I really wanted it, I know I would do it. And I think I'd be good at it. The problem is that sometimes I don't feel girly. Sue's brother comes in and takes the reins for a while. This isn't just something I do to "get by" or hide behind. It's the way I feel at the moment and therein lies the headache. At arbitrary times, i feel masculine, and, when I do, Sue takes a nap for a while. There's really no internal conflict. Both sides coexist peacefully and together form my personality. The problem is that I can't ever foretell how I'll feel in an hour, or even in five minutes. Right now I'm traveling and I asked some local girls where to go and they were so nice and supportive. I got everything ready, even mapquested all the directions. But when it came time to dress I wasn't in the mood to be Suezie. I wasn't afraid or embarassed. I was just disinterested. That sucks I think because I know I would've had so much fun. I also feel like I let my sisters down a little by not going out to meet them. But I'm not going to force myself to be a girl. I'm a girl when I am and I'm not when I'm not. Because of this Im a totally natural girl when Im a girl because I AM a girl and not a guy pretending to be girl. I dont want to change this. I dress when it's natural for me. I just wish I could get the two parts of me to agree on some sort of time share :) <sigh> ME ME ME can you tell I'm very girlie at the moment? I apologize for this rant but I thought getting it all out might ease the frustration I feel when things like this happen. Thank you all for listening. Sue out <giggle> :)[Comment on this post]
I like to drive stick
Spirit May 28th, 2008 4:02 pm MDTI love driving and i like stick cars best cause they're the most fun to drive. I like nice cars - I have an A4, right now. It's used (I'm the third owner) but it's quattro and its white and I love it. I also like convertibles but I only owned one ever and, even though I always say, "Convertible HO!" when it's car buying time, somehow I never seem to find the right one. I don't like new cars cause I hate loans and I hate losing 5 grand or more from my investment just by driving off the lot. So no new cars for me!! I'm not crazy about American cars (they're good cars. I just don't care for them, as a whole) because they always seem to be full of useless space in the passenger compartment. I like older cars 'cause they seem to have more glass and I like to see what's going on around me. This morning I drove to work. It was a great time. The weather was sunny and just chilly enough to open the roof and all the windows. Cranked up the stereo to drown out the wind. Early. in the City. Back in the Northeast (traveling on business YAY) working the Stick and drinking coffee at the same time. And that's why I think I'm cool - cause Sue can drive stick and drink hot coffee and still look pretty for work. ...can't wait to go see speed racer :)[1 comment]
Planting a Tree
Spirit May 18th, 2008 8:21 am MDTI'm traveling, again. I used to travel a lot on business. Not so much, anymore, and I've really missed it but I'm so happy to be in a place I've never visited before! I went for a walk last night. The air was cold and the sky was clear and people were so very nice. I'm looking out my window now and so happy to see pretty buildings with old fashioned architecture all around me. My job can sometimes suck, but it doesn't, right now, so I'm going to enjoy the moment for all it's worth. Love you all - Suesie[1 comment]
walking
Spirit May 12th, 2008 12:40 pm MDTshe's walking now. she walked yesterday and will walk tomorrow. Sometimes she forgets she's even walking. she feels anger or distress and the world implodes on her, invading her true mind, breaking her thoughtless concentration. Threatened, she may lash out. Acting harshly and hurting, she ties herself down, drawn further into the feaux world. Her true mind betrayed by her emotions, she shudders like Atlas 'neath the weight of stress and loneliness. She cries alone inside, soflty like Penelope, her house taken, her virtue the prize in a contest of thieves. Sometimes she breaks down, but rarely. Sometimes she attacks with fury and strength, thinking, naiively, that instilling fear in others will keep her safe. But she does that less today than yesterday. And then she remembers. Spontaneity, contentment, happiness. Her soul walks and her spirit wraps her. Her mind rests, walking close to its true clarity, almost knowing herself. Almost knowing her mind. Approaching the clear, pre-dawn light of a quiet sea. walking closer than yesterday as the world retreats yet fills her soul and she realizes all things connected. Hardship justified and necessary as everything moves forward together step by step. Now she Walks, now remembering THAT she walks. Just like she did yesterday and will tomorrow. She smiles softly, inwardly. Walking away but drawing close. She walks with no destination. Until, one day, quietly, in the grey blue eastern light of the pre-dawn sky. The Goddess Opens Her Eyes. And Lo, When two sets of footprints in the sand become one, then I will carry god, and the world, and all that is, was, and ever shall be. The world sings to her as angels and demons prostrate themselves. Until one small foot caresses Geb's strong shoulders again. Giggling and smiling the thought passes away as she walks, fey again, wrapped in the world, clothed in Spirit and connected with everything that is and isn't. Until, walking, she forgets everything again. Until she remembers again.[1 comment]
Grammar, Gender: more than meets the eye
Spirit May 12th, 2008 11:22 am MDTSephie made this wonderful comment, today about my previous journal entry: On your last comment: I agree. The alternative-vowel spellings, although intended to convey that we're perhaps a bit different from the "genetic" variety, have come to seem affected to me. Nevertheless I love it when I can answer to that title, no matter how it's spelled.Luv and Hugz (Did I just make myself a hypocryte? ), I love it so much that i posted it here so I could make what I hope is a worthwhile comment and maybe some of you will enjoy reading or pondering it. or not :) I think the transphonic "Hugz", while grammatically similar to "Gurls" in technical alteration, conveys an entirely different emotional impact to the recipient. The former is a cute dimunitive. It feels warm on the intellect, safe and sunny. So many positive implications vibe off it. It feels like a smile or the warm sun on a quiet spring day. The latter, "gurl", is much more technical and less emotional. Saying "gurl", to me SEPARATES feminine personalities based on physical gender. The term , to me, is a bit negative and aggressive. It invites, almost begs, a confontation of values, ethics, etc. I like to foster unity, when I can. I want to bring everyone together not divide people. And maybe that's a bit heavy but I think there's a measure of truth in it. So, I say, "No Sephie. You are definitely NOT a hypocrite. " I would love to hear what other people think. Love Sue :)[Comment on this post]
sleepy in the south
Spirit May 11th, 2008 11:01 am MDTI'm not a southerner. Even though I live here I can't seem to really assimilate. Even though I've met some REALLY great friends like Mezzie, Petulantkim and Sephie, who have made face down my "all southerners are ignorant proletarian bigots" prejudice, I'll never really fit in here. I don't mind it much but here I am, bored and sleepy and just a little lonely. Writing in my journal seems like a nice way to pass a few minutes but I don't have enything super profound to say today. I have lived all over the world (really I have) and it blows me away that I was a completely dormant girlie when I lived in NYC, London, Singapore, and Nagasaki. All of these places were so much more fun for CDs than dumb Jacksonvile! (sorri jax girls. I have to ask, though, "where are you all hiding?") Anyway, It's just kind of funny to me, today, the way life gives you great opportunities at times when you're not prepared to see them. Well, believe it or not I feel better and much happier, now. Thanks for listening - I feel like all of my guy and girlfriends have lifted the loneliness from my (pretti, btw) shoulders! I'll see you all soon. be safe :) love Suesie PS- I don't know why, but I always seem to prefer calling us girls, as opposed to gurls, gyrls, etc. Go figure ;)[2 comments]