Linzie Rell
Journal Entries for Linzie Rell
Just an another couple in the world
September 19th, 2008 11:41 am MDT
Hey all WEll My fiance and I have been togeather for 3 months . It just seems to get better everyday We'ev been out on trips twice and spent every minute togeather 5 days and 4 days and there was'nt a single uncomfortable second the whole time . With his wonderful solid support I'm now starting my full transition set our wedding date so i can be married with female on our marriage certificate. He is very comfortable with that and it's my choice . We both marvel at how big the odds to just find each other much less to fall so deeply in love and have it all be so easy for us . I just have to say to any of you who are looking for that real life realationship It can happen and from not at all where youmight think it will come from. I want to thank all those friends and admires who have wished us the best ,thats so cool of all of you . Well please do say hi if i'm on chat . Love you all Linzie Rell
Well He made an honest girl of me
August 17th, 2008 2:38 pm MDT
Hey all This is the best day of my life , My sweet, kind , caring loving guy popped the question . I"M ENGAGED YeeeahHHh. Never dreamed it was possible to dream about being a wife for a real guy who makes me proud to know him because he's so honset to himself and me. No date set Lots of real life menushe to work thru. But He assuers me that its little stuff and he 'll be there at my side forever So what can i do but look up at him and smile . So If you ever have doubts about where and who you are and what may happen in the future be positive and take that chance because things come from places you never expect them too. Love you All
I never thought
July 21st, 2008 12:02 pm MDT
Hi ALL Well I never Thought I'd ever have a discusssion with my mom about leaving on a vacation with a man as linzie. But It happened last nite, I have a wonderful real man in my life and hes going to be here on friday. We have 5 days with no agenda other then to enjoy each others company. Were staying at the queenmary for 3 day and then here in my home town for 2 so i can show him around . I'm meeting him at the airport as me And i have planed a big suprise for him upon his arrival . I had a duplicate of a ring I have worn for years of a pod of dolphins because i surf with them every morning and with mean such and bring peace and hormony to my life ,Well he told me we should make a pact when we met for us to never ever lose our love for each other and i rememberd that , So when i geather him up at the airport i'm going up to him and give him a big kiss the put my finger to his lips to shsssss and take him by the hand to the car with no further words . Then when get his thing put up and sit in the car togeather i'm going to hand him a ring box with both rings in it tied with pink ribbon and a piece of parchment with vows for us to tell each other as we put each others rings each others finger. As a late blommer Tg person who has been blessed with the chance to share all my femme emotions wwith a loving caring , understanding , centered human being i want to make that moment that we both will cherish from that day on . My mom has her proper doubts about a man whos coming 3000 miles to see her son/daughter ,but i told her i need to be happy and if i were born as here daughter shed be so happy for me to be truly loved by such a wonderful real person. This is the most pure simple . real and innocent realationship you'll ever find . Star crossed , destined , written , He and i are truly soulmates no more no less. Hope those who read this find that in there lives. Linzie Rell
At last i found him my soulmate
June 30th, 2008 2:15 pm MDT
Hey all We all know the that need and desire to express all those female emotions that dwell in us, And getting to be with a confidant secure in himself male in public has been the most wonderful Vent for that i'v found yet . Had a banner month in may dated 5 guys all had there own charm . Oh and there was no si never put iex involved just great real world dates great food great conversation nice warm mutual affection shared. But they still had there low points The best os them was married , the others were curious but not LTR material. So i stayed on my course to be out there and active in trying to see if there was a real mature male who real wanted an ltr or more with a TG person like Me. Ok heres the twist I would have never put in fiath at all in a long distance Meet ever , All those so called great understanding ones that you meet on here that are forlorn because of the distance but would snap you up if you were in the next county. Well as i was on yahoo mess. on my cam with tg friend I get a request to view me ,Low and behold That one in a billion guy poped in to my life . All the qualities That most females would love in a gentleman , 3000 miles away from me ,that was 8 days ago WE have communicated 5 out of the 8 for at least 2 hrs. each time and more then 1 time aday . I was told by my therapist that theres someone for every one I half heartedly believed that till that moment we started chatting . Every emotion and feeling has been brought to light by skip Not as that BS line we all here from the admires here but such an honest out pouring of his heart. Needless to say hes swept me off my feet and countiues to levitate me so far . But the most amazing thing about all this is that over the last 5 days we see each other beaming with all the things that matter when to people care and share and want each other . Theres no agenda we geniunly care and love each other as a person not as a sex . or a gender . He has the ablity to be here on my terms and my timetable and shows me his desire for it to be sooner then later. We plan to go away for a long weekend and explore this new found love. There are lots of things we need to learn about us as a couple and he was the first to use that term as i allways scared we to ever think that was possible in a real world realationship between a man and a tg person. However I'm so comfortable with it as a fact now and he is the one making think that way not wild eyed tg brain running amuck. I have to pinch myself in the morning to make sure its real, But he tells me every morning he does too and if you saw his smile you'd see its true. I'm The luckest Tg around, To be found by your soulmate by simple blind luck and a keystroke WOW . I call our realtionship cold fusion because so little goes into creating so much. He thinks thats great so do I
First Femme Performance
May 11th, 2008 9:24 am MDT
Well I have always dreamed of being able to do my solo guitar and sing act as linzie . but getting an opportunity to do so had never happened till last nite. I was almost 4 yrs since i took my first step out in public at the alpha tri ess meeting in burbank . A lots has happened since that nite. , but i was aske to perform there by my big sister contessa who was doing a program for tri ess. I had been playing with 4-5 tunes i could do in my Femme voice and do a faithful rendition of . so i fugured i'd be able to fill 15 min. so i egaerly agreed to. As it turned out I ended up being the dinner set entertainment so I Winged Lots of tunes enfemme and vocaly suprised myself on how easy it was . It was almost as i had come full circle to be playing at tri ess,And i want to thank any from there who read this. Linda And contessa did a great job . I met alot of girls who were there the first nite i had gone there . It was very theraputic to have such a creative ,positive experiance and to appericated by members of the community and the hotel staff as well. So now that the ice has been broken i guess i'll find an agent lol. i wish. But i'm going to work a full act and see where it goes. one Never know s do one, well check for my next club date Lnzie Rell
Well Time to grow up
May 2nd, 2008 9:38 am MDT
hey All Things have been moving fast for me since Jan. . I'm out and about smoothly and comfortably anywhere anytime now. Dating Is so so , But i have fun sifting threw these so called straight guy lol. I have the go ahead to start Hrt anytime i'm ready. So i"m taking bigger steps to establish my identity as linzie in the real world to get as much interaction with any and all who care to meet or talk with me . So i'm Starting a venture In which i can help those of us that are closted or just starting to get there own look in there femme persona, I call it emergence . it's a shopping and dressing consulting service for Tg,tv .cds who may need to be discreet or just neeed that first step as we all did but did'nt know who to ask. If you intersted email me for the information. Well wish me luck I know theres a need for such a sevice because we all were inthat spot in the begaining . So i feel very positive about being able to hopefuly save others from the trying period of dispair you can go threw . Thanks for lookin linzie
Moving on
March 9th, 2008 8:27 am MDT
Hi AllWell the first 3 months of 08 have been like a dream. I have An all female support system 6 in all ,my self esteem is soaring, I function as a female in public now seamlessly. I had been seeing my gender therapist a yr.and a half ago and just started again last month. All I well she thinks i'm boringly normal and that i have grown so well since i had last visited her. So now i'm faced with the reality of being a tg person and having to deal with the folks in my home town i'm third gen. only male child born and raised in a small town i see my high school friends on a dailey basis. but can't as me because of family . I do have 3 females here that know and are great friends . So i spend most of my time at home or out of town seeing other friends or just exploring the mainstream world . My biggest problem now is that i have lots of roads to explore and i look for interaction with people eveywhere now i don't fear it . I do a lot of running around with my dear freind countessa and we just do everyday errends or go have a drink after closing time at her shop. But i'm I go out and have lunch , shop , date , and just learn.What I have found out thses few my months Is that If you dress nice , act and carry your self well ,and are nice to others no matter what the situation they treat you nice . I was in the No. hllywood police station and delt with the desk sgt. Yes mam ,no mam was all i got. This has made me very confident and fearless. AS for the dating thing well guys are guys but for some reason most who want to date tgs think that the normal basic rules don't apply to them . So weeding out tranny chasers is becoming an art. I have meet a few real nice guys . But Thats was for breafest or lunch and most guys don't want real world dates . So my quest for a real nice understanding goes on , But i'm willing to kiss frogs and It's alot of fun being on this side of dating . What now well i'm going to an interview as a volinteer at the ucla ,lgbt center, want to start a service to shop and help closeted tg/cds dress and get a look . Going to push the envelope on emerging in my home town. most of bond with my mom who finally called me linzie last week big step for her. Well see ya all later
Great support system
January 10th, 2008 7:59 pm MST
Hi All Since that day linzie found herself shes had great folks who loved and care for her.One of the most loving and caring persons Has been Countessa of countessas closet One saterday I was out shopping on ventura blvd. In studio city . I had stopped by glamour boutiqe wich was still open then and a few of the shps along the way . I had always heard about contessas Closet but realy did'nt know where it was then.Well as I was heading for the 101 fwy. i noticed Her sign at the mall her shops in , it was around 3PM ,so decided to take a look . I walked in to this great cute shop with more clothes then in any of the shops i had been in all morning . I suprised contessa whos this cute small bundle of joy and energy . As she did'nt see me slink in. She introduced her self and I was so suprised to have anyone just treat me as a female customer as openly and honestl as her. Since that first meeting we ha ve become great friends. I have come to respect and admier her loving honest heart , all tho she she can seem abit hard and in your face if your the timid type it's not at all her true color . Contessa Is a true pillar Of the Transgender community and not at all out to push any thing she has for sale . She Won't tell new folks in the cuommunity that they look great in her makeup ,clothes ,shoes if it's not true . And i have delt with what was out there as her rivals i say that because she had no competition . THey would all lie about how you looked to make sales, And being new and needing input they took advantage of that. As a tg person and wanting to function as normal as possible in the real world guidance and honesty are so much appricated . THe only Place i have found that is at contessas. She and i have become sisters Critical and loving ,sweet and comforting. What more could you ask for . At this stage in my new life I have had and up and down year But When i spend that great personal time with my sister Countessa There are no bad times. If you are ever near her shop stop in and tell her linzie sent you I esure you won't be dissapointed in any way by doing so. Love Is all i have to give. Linzie Rell
Best day in my life
January 6th, 2008 11:10 am MST
1--01 -08WEll Came out to mom , THought it would be the worst day of my life i'm an only child male . Had to move in with her in nov. when dad passed away . So got rid of anything linzie clothes ,makeup . hairs all of it just to risky in the move . But as a tg preson had to be me so was buying new things and a gg friend was keeping them for me, well mom got a bit curious and asked me me about little thingss she noticed so i just told her i'm tg . she a sweet simple person but the most loving caring person you'll ever meet so she accepts me as me now . In the last week we have bonded so much shes done thing with my hair and makeup when i went shopping last sat. Has bought clohes for me wants to do makeup sessions and go out with me . What more could i ask for went from hiding to being 3/4 time girl now . just at work and in local places do i have to be a boi. 3 rd gen family in a small la town big re as macho surfer guy here. All girl really . I hope anyone in my situation has the loving caring mom that i do and this year is going to be great.
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