URNotAlone

Moving on

March 9th, 2008 8:27 am MDT

Hi AllWell the first 3 months of 08 have been like a dream. I have An all female support system  6 in all ,my self esteem is soaring, I function as a female in public now seamlessly. I had been seeing my gender therapist a yr.and a half ago and just started again last month. All I well she thinks i'm boringly normal and that i have grown so well since i had last visited her. So now i'm faced with the reality of being a tg person and having to deal with the folks in my home town i'm third gen. only male child born and  raised in a small town i see my high school friends on a dailey basis. but can't as me because of family . I do have 3 females here that know and are great friends . So i spend most of my time at home or out of town seeing other friends or just exploring the mainstream world . My biggest problem now  is that i have lots of roads to explore and i look for interaction with people eveywhere now i don't fear it . I do a lot of running around with my dear freind countessa and we just do everyday errends or go have a drink after closing time at her shop. But i'm I go out and have lunch , shop , date , and just learn.What I have found out thses few my months Is that If you dress nice , act and carry your self well ,and are nice to others no matter what the situation they treat you nice . I was in the No. hllywood police station and delt with the desk sgt. Yes mam ,no mam was all i got. This has made me very confident and fearless. AS for the dating thing well guys are guys  but for some reason most who want to date tgs think that the normal basic rules don't apply to them . So weeding out tranny chasers is becoming an art. I have meet a few real nice guys . But Thats was for breafest or lunch and most guys don't want real world dates . So my quest for  a real nice understanding goes on , But i'm willing to kiss frogs and It's alot of fun being on this side of dating . What now well i'm going to an interview as a volinteer at the ucla ,lgbt center, want to start a service to shop and help closeted tg/cds dress and get a look . Going to push the envelope on emerging in my home town. most of bond with my mom who finally called me linzie last week big step for her.  Well see ya all later