URNotAlone

Celebrating Life

March 24th, 2008 11:18 am MDT

    Yesterday my older brother passed away at the age of 53  he was only 14 months older than me. I think the shock is that we are so close inage thoughhehad been suffering alot inrecent years becasue he was in poor health. I got to thinking everyone grieves in their own way. But should the passing of aloved one  to  abetter place be  mounring their leaving us or celebrating the life and example they left behind.

   I think  it  honors our loved ones to remember the value their lives brought to us. If there is one thing I can learn from  my  older brothers existence its you should live your life theway you want and  be  who you truly are. We grew up in amiddle clas environment and wantd for nothing yet my older  brother was the rebel the on to go against  convention. He chose  the path of most resistence yet  he lived in the manner that he chose and did what he wanted. While he was not trans  he was certainly  not one to live by convention and ther was never any  question  of who he was  or what he thought. If  I do  have one regret  its that I never  took the opportunity to let him  know his sister for most of  his life I was so confused about who I am that I had o n  o idea myself however the last  several years I sorte dthat  out and started downthepatht o discovering and sharing whoI am yet I never took that opportunity to honestly share myself with him.

  I ahve no doubt thathe isrestingpeacefully and has gone onto a better existence. All I can say is while he was stil here I never realized that in his way he set an w example for  me  be who you are and  don't be afraid of what you are. I am goign to do my best to try  and start living tht way  in his honor.