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Finally we are together where we are happy
Anna and Racheal January 6th, 2009 10:33 pm MSTWe made it
Wow I can't believe that after 6+ months of planning that Racheal and I are really here. The drive was so long, the truck and trailer was over loaded and made driving very slow. on average we managed about 55 miles per hour except going up hills which might slow us down to 40+
The scenery was so beautiful literally breath taking! I felt such a sense of belonging.
Racheal and I, have meet some really cool people since getting here.
Of course we left behind things we thought we had brought that sucks as it's a really long drive to storage so we will have to make do!
Last evening we started venturing out around town to see some of the area and learn where some things are. "of course we did this at Midnight so traffic would not be so bad for us to drive slowly.
Tomorrow I go into my new office and meet my new boss, I'm looking forward to getting back to work.
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A walk in a special park in Austin
Anna and Racheal January 6th, 2009 10:32 pm MSTA walk in a special park
Racheal took me on a walk to a special park that means a lot to her. We had a wonderful time walking around the winding streams and viewing the hillside how it's been carved out of the surrounding stone.
We took pictures from my phone and I am hoping she will post them to my computer so I can post them on this site.
I love her so much and it is such a honor to have her show me places that mean so much to her.
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New Photos Coming
Kimberly Elise January 6th, 2009 6:30 am MSTI had a formal makeover and photo session on Sunday, January 4th. Later this week I should have some new photos, my first big group of new photos since last May. They will include some casual "bare leg" looks with denim and flip flops, as well as some more dressed up office lady looks. Some of the photos will show off the pedicure I had (vivid pink nail polish). Also, my hair is in a longer style now, well below my shoulders. Kim :-)
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Rachelle Elizabeth Williams January 3rd, 2009 4:49 pm MSTHi Girls and Gurls. Had a lovely Christmas season and a happy New Year! Did a lot of shopping in the fall especially in November and December. Have not been able to shoot pics like I would have liked with company and all. Its been nuts!! Have been collecting a whole bunch of nice new blouses, some new hose, high heeled boots, some polyester pants, sateen skirts, bras, panties, and the like. It has been very good as far as clothes shopping.
Looking forward to 2009 and working on my makeup, appearance and photo skills. Love to shoot photos if you can't tell. Hope that everyone on this site has a great New Year and I hope to hear more from my sisters on here soon.
XOXOXOXOXO,
Rachelle
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This Transgender Existance: Where I Am
Georgieanna Gwendolyn Gorgeous January 3rd, 2009 11:30 am MSTI was chattign on line with a friend last night and discussing where I am in my journey and the reasons for such.
In the way of a little background I am now 52 soon to be 53(May 5 too close whew!!) but then again age is only one more label we use to define ourselves. Around the age of 9 I had my first experience related to wht I at the ti me saw as cross dressing. I always saw it as that in my formative years but somehow the sinning of female attire was never about sexual gratifacation there was always something more it seemed to transport me to a more calm and serene feeling. Being raised a wasp this conflicted with not only my socialization but what I was taughta s a protestant. Of course by the time I reached puberty I was invovled in scouting and so many other male oriented activities that I was able to ignore or at least sublimate the other desires.
Through high school I would have been considered to be shy around girls. As I have matured and come to understand myself bettter I now realize what I at the time thought were crushes on several girls were not that at all. I now believe that I was atracted to their feminine beauty and strength because though physically I apeared to be male psychologically and spiritually I was struggling to gain my female awareness. What I was really desiring was that my shysical attributes would have allowed me to share true gender with other females and to experience and share those pubescent rituals with the girls. Through college I once again was able to sublimate my true self because my focus was on graduating andd starting a life.
Many times through my 20's and even into my early 40's I would return secrectly to the dressing to satisfythe innerneeds. Always it woudl be fine for a short period of timethen my religious and social upbringing would surface and I would feel deep guilt why am I this way boys don't have those desires besides its a sin just look in the bible. my major confusion was based on the misinformation that I was exposed to growing up the idea that boys that wanted to dress as girls were gay. Yet I k newin my own heart and mind that my sexual orientation was not gay so what was wrong with me if I wa snot gay why did I harbor this desire to dress female and even more why did I expereince such an overwhelming sense of calm and joy when I was dreswed female?
As I reeached my mid 40's the conflict reached a point where I could no longer ignore the needs. The major event in my life at this time that put on more a road of self discovery was my first pc and my first encounter with the internet. The first search parameters I ever typed into an engine were the terms cross dresser, transvestite and transsexual.this was such an ephipany for me becasue though logically I probably always comprehended that I was not the only one to see thousands uppon thousands of sites dealing withthe whole tg spectrum was proof positive that I was not alone. At this point in my journey I immediately accepted that I was a cross dresser and felt such a relief of burden becasue if I there were so manyothers aroudn the world not only was I not alone but maybe I wasn't so strange.
Through another girl I meant in a chat room I was guided to Trie Ess ( The Society for The Second Self):a national and international organzation that is a support group for cds an d their families> Upon reading the theory of the second self I came to the revalation that this made sense about who I was and where I fit. This was 8years ago and in the beginning of my self realization this was a comfortable place for me I could express myself in a group of like minded people. I was able to get out once a month as my inner female self. Somewhere in the middle of the second year of my tri ess association I realized that accepting myself as a cross dresser was just a step ina much larger journey. What led me tothis realization is one saturday night after returning home from the monthly meeting I had such a heavy sense of dread that Ihad to remove al the clothing and make up and go back to the male appearance. It was at this point that Iunderstood that identifying as a cd had been a comfortable place to start but it wasn't really me. It was that nightthat I began identifying myself as transsexual.
Though due to circumstances in my life at this time I still live the majority of my life as a male I now identify as a non op ts female. Many people I have spoken with feel that its wrong for me to identify this way because niether am I yet living even 50% of the time as female or on hrt (hormone replacement therapy). My answer to that is that I know in my inner beign that I am female and that point can not be argued. I also am told that becasue I have not revealed this to my immediate family I am not being true to myself. My answer to that is especially with my parents becasue of their age and the time they were brought up in its better not to ask them to deal with it. Also as htey are in their 80s and my mother isstricken with ms and my father is her care giver I think it would be quite selfish of me to make this an issue for them. As I gro tounderstand myself more I also have come to the conclusion that as much as we want others to accept that this is whowe truly are that it is hard to lay that expectation on them when it takes us so long to understand and accept ourselves.
I have found ways to cope. I have several very close ts girlfriends that constantly express thier love and support and provide encouragement. Theyhave helped me to understand that while many of us take this journey each of us is unique in that we each find the paththat owrks best for us.
My friend told me last night that she thought I was being strong and valiant by considering my parents needs over mine. Iam not sure if that is the case I just know that as my inner female traits grow and develope that in an indirect way while they still seee me as their son they are getting to nowtheir daughter.
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We are Evil?
Tammie Lynn Huber January 1st, 2009 6:45 pm MSTSo now, at age 51, because I chose happiness instead of sadness, life instead of suicide and although I am a good person, I love all people, regardless of any differences...as I have always, I am honest, I have never taken drugs, never been drunk, never committed theft, have always reached out to help anyone that I could...now, some people, the Catholic church and others consider me evil and a lessor human?
Even though I am still a hard working individual and pay taxes, I am not aloud to marry my one true love, another male to female transsexual?
I can be fired from my job in most states, denied medical care, and the federal government and anti-LGBT Churches, condones the violence against us.
Is that the actions of a good government and a righteous church?
The pope says if we are aloud to marry that the human race will eventually die out because humans will cease to propagate, what?
Two things, first; we are going to overpopulate this planet into ruin or kill it by other means, second; LGBT have been here since the beginning of man like I said and look how the we have grown in the past 4000 years.
We are no threat to any one's existence, we only want the same rights that every human being deserves, and yes, I fight for everyone who needs help gaining equal rights, not just our community.
Would they practice some type of genocide if given the chance?
Do they condone the violence perpetrated against the LGBT community?
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2008 in Review
Dan™ & Erin™ December 31st, 2008 2:28 pm MSTWell, it's definitely been an interesting year. A lot has happened. I ended a relationship with the best girlfriend I've ever had (though she still wasn't right), I've watched my prosperity complete dry up, I've almost completely stopped smoking and my drinking is almost not even noticeable at this point. I've fallen in love with the most incredible woman and I'm slowly figuring things out.
When the year began, I was worried about money. My company stopped producing and selling adult content which resulted in a massive drop of revenue. Around the same time, I broke my primary revenue producing website preventing people with IE 6 from accessing it, so I spent most of the year working on a new design which finally went online in August.
I really thought most of my financial problems were my fault. The result of changes in my companies business model and my own failing's running the web sites. In fact, I was so busy trying to figure out what I was doing wrong that I didn't notice the world collapsing slowly outside my window.
I had to cash in my kids college funds to pay bills. I had to cancel my life insurance to pay bills. When my car died, I decided to sell it for scrap rather than repair it. Fewer bills again. My house is usually a bit chilly and dark to save on utilities. I've reduced my monthly budget by around 2,000. I've been selling furniture to buy groceries.
For everything that had gone wrong, I'm optimistic. Not because I see an end in sight, but because I feel like I'm getting a handle on things. I have the best friends of my life. I'm in love for the first time in my life. I'm relatively healthy and my kids are healthy and seem well adjusted.
I think things are going to get worse. A lot worse, but I'm confident that we'll all get through this. As a planet, we need to step back and assess what's important. We need to focus on the things that need to be done, and we need to start working towards a better future.
I think we'll do it.
I hope.
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URNA DETECTIVES NEWS FLASH! DAN, JON & THE CASE OF THE MISSING JOURNAL ENTRIES!
Karen Reeves December 27th, 2008 8:54 pm MSTHi Everyone!
It appears that the case of the missing journal entry postings has been SOLVED!
I can see from my own list of the number of journal entries posted on my site that last June 4th was a busy day. I know I have posted quite a few journal entries over the years but not 53 of them!!! I can talk and write alot but . . . . .
Trying to repair the site the guys posted over 30 test entries on my site in just a few hours! When the site recently got repaired these disappearing journal entries suddenly reappeared. I just noticied this and have spent time deleting the test items.
I would suggest that everyone go delete repetative journal/test items to cut down on the clutter.
Thanks Dan & Jon for the great work in making Urnotalone such an awesome place!!! You have proved yourselves again!
*Smiles*
~Karen~
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Merry xMas!
Dan™ & Erin™ December 25th, 2008 7:35 am MST[2 comments]
transexuals and the creator
Anna and Racheal December 24th, 2008 3:51 pm MSTtranssexual and the creator
I did something I rarely do anymore, I stopped by a church and went inside mainly to dodge the rain and use the bathroom. But I did stop in the chapel area for a few minutes.
I have always considered myself to be a fairly spiritual person and I know I have thought of this before but feel moved to express it to best of my ability.
"God made each and every one of us in his image and by his own hand, yes he even made us transsexual people, he made the gays, lesbians, bisexuals. He made us for a reason and with a purpose upon this earth. But yet it is the christian s who persecute us and prevent us from being who we are and from receiving the same rights as those who conform to the church standards of the "man made laws" of what is right and wrong. because of this we can't marry and we do not receive the same rights as others. As I sat their looking up at that cross at our savior I could not help but think this is not the church he created. It is mans creation and not the divines creation".
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Dork Much?
Anna and Racheal December 24th, 2008 9:21 am MSTSo we grabbed some Chinese tonight for dinner - after working in storage and packing and running errands and disposing of stuff and just being busy getting things ready to go. And what is Chinese without a fortune cookie? Well for Anna it would be a lot less papery.
What? You might ask.
I would answer by saying - I asked her what her fortune said. She looked at me, stopped chewing, pulled the chewed fortune out of the cookie mess in her mouth and read it to me - 'You have the wisdom of the ages'
Anyone know the definition of irony?
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Merry Christmas 2008 To You All!
Karen Reeves December 20th, 2008 11:51 pm MSTHi Everyone!
It is that time of year and yesterday's/today's snowstorm just seems to add to the festive mood of Christmas. I know that getting ready for the holidays can be stressful and painful.
I enjoy all the bright lights, good cheer, parties, the presents, and Xmas dinner. But let us remember the true meaning of Xmas. It is the day that we celeberate the life of one person and the meaning of what it is to strive and have a better planet to live on.
Enjoy your holidays no matter your belief system!!!!!
*Kisses*
~Karen~
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I Despise You People
Michelle Hart December 12th, 2008 4:44 pm MSTThe other night while I was watching the news it was annouced that here in Dallas a brand new "law" would be handed down and used to further punish those of us who have commited no crime. Those of us who have done nothing to the pathetic and pitiful "victims" who have cried foul for years. I have never met you, nor have I said a crass word to you until now. I have tried to stop your endless crusades of ignorance before, but alas my right's are far less important than yours aren't they.
As many of you know I frequently offer my suggestions and perhaps some questionable wisdom for the many wonderful people here in the URNA family. In the grandest sense I have compassion and love for each of you, but some of your efforts and actions are insanly ludicris and impossibly idiotic.
You don't know me but that really doesn't matter. It's your mission in life to punish me and harass me. You have taken it upon yourself to cost me even more money at every turn. That wasn't enough for you though, you wanted more from me. You forced me to stand out in the snow, and the rain. Why should you care if I catch a cold. You got your way like the screaming little brat in a store who has a mother that just can't say no. Your whining temper tantrums are the stuff of legend.
Oh you cry, and flail about in an never ending quest to be validated for your own stupidity and disrespect. You only care about YOU! Nobody else matters. Not the people that will lose their jobs, not the busineses that will lose revenue, certainly not the companies that initially built this nation.
Did you know that all you have today is because of them? You don't care though because you got to force me to give up one more thing that I enjoyed. Desperately hopeing you could taste something other than the meaningless life you live now. Am I being to hateful or harsh for you? Well you have treated me with disdain and contempt for years but you never noticed it. You were far to busy dreaming up your next cause and looking for the newest idiotic crusade.
You are to much of a coward to risk anything at all. You have never been willing to start your own business and cater to those who share your opinion. You were not willing to invest all you had to build something up and gain a loyal customer base. No not you. That was far to difficult, and you knew it would fail eventualy anyway. So you decided to punish those who did do it instead. Why should you put your hard work and effort into something and risk failure? You would never ever do that, it's so much easier to hide behind someone else and throw your intolerance around.
Why should you care if a business has to close it's doors, why should you care if YOU are the cause of that inconveinience. You got your way and finally got to punish the evil doers like me who just happened to be enjoying something you don't like. It never crossed your mind to go someplace else. Oh that's right, those places were not nearly as much fun were they?
Respect for others was never very easy for you was it? So you run your Ad's on the tele, you have your websites and claims of percieved malice. All the while totally ignoring not only the history of this country but those of us who still believe in freedom of choice. Yes my dear, that's right. You lack the most basic of intelligence, you fail in understanding and accepting those simple words. I am sure it's just impossible for you creatins to understand, that anyone could actually have the ability to live their own life without your intrusive and totally misguided wisdom!
You have a choice. Yet, you would do all that you can to ensure that I'm not allowed one. You decry the trauma that I cause you, the pain you feel, the suffering you endure. Oh yes honey you are no different from the petulant lout of a child who did'nt get a lolly pop.
The sheer disdain and contempt you show for me and others is deplorable.
You see my right's as written in the constitution to pursue life liberty and happiness mean absolutely nothing to you. You and the other uneducated brigons have taken it upon yourselves to transfer your inherent misery onto me and others. While I and others try to casually enjoy our evenings out, or just relax at home, you fume and plot and scheme in evermore creative ways to dictate my actions and limit my personal decisions and choices.
Misery loves company and you just can't wait to make everyone as miserable as you.
It's not enough that I have tried to work with you by sitting outside in the cold, or at the back of reasteraunts where I can't apreciate the veiw. No that just was'nt enough, it never will be. So you cried more and more. You complained and no matter what I or anyone else did to make you happy it just was'nt ever enough.
As long as you get your way, it does'nt matter if I have to suffer right? You have forced me to give up the thing's that I used to be able to enjoy in peace. To you EVERYTHING is a problem for you to solve and control. Would you devise a polite and respectful resolution to your egregious and intelectually vapid claims of suffering? Never! That's far to mature and respectful for you.
So I write this open letter to you, the pathetic whining child, the denzien who cares only about yourself and your "rights" but nobody elses. You wretches who have shown such utter and total comtempt for me as an adult. You, who delusionally belive that it is somehow your responsibility nay your "right" to intrude on my life and ruin my relaxation and enjoyment no matter the cost.
You have taken so much from me and others yet have given NOTHING back.
You are a parisite that eagerly sucks the life out of everything around you. As long as you get to decide how everyone else lives, what they eat, or even what they are allowed to drive you're happy.
Unfortunately for you that will never be, YOU will never be happy! YOU will never be content! So today I just wanted to say how much I despise you, how much I loath you and your ilk.
Becasue of YOU I can no longer enjoy a cigarette or a cigar at the Village Station or any other bar or resturaunt in Dallas.
Feel free to let me know what other choices of mine you would like to take away....
Oh and my final two words to you, one these words is “Up.” The other is a possessive pronoun.
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Happy Holidays
Rachelle Elizabeth Williams December 8th, 2008 5:04 am MSTWanted to say hi and happy holidays to all of you girls, TS, TV, TG, CDs, and everyone else. Should be on here more for the holidays and looking forward to the holidays and hoping i can dress more. Been experimenting more with digital photos and wanting to do some higher quality photos and videos. Working towrard making a couple of videos for Youtube and photos for here and other sites.
Look for more photos to be accounts that I have for Flickr, Hi 5, Yahoo 360, Myspace, Multiply, and others. Going to remove some background junk and items to have a good place to do photos and some better backgrounds. Anyway, just had to say hi and hugs to friends, admirers, and others.
Rachelle
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auto accident
Anna and Racheal November 21st, 2008 11:02 am MSTLast evening when we where coming from Peru IN coming home. ( my job entails me working as a canvasser going into small towns and talking to people) Anyhow we where in the company Suburban (I am a feild manager and this was my crew all 6 of us). It was snowing and roads (Hwy 24) was very slick. My driver was being cautious but we hit a slick spot on the hwy and lost control of the vehicle.We shot across the medium and across a dual lane Hwy slamming into two ditches and nearly rolling the burb over several times. Luckfully no one was hurt other than bruising and body aches. Beefcake our nick name for our burb is not in as good of shape but kept us safe.
The first thing I thought of was "NO not now I can't die yet I'm not a girl yet" and my second thought as we where about to crash was. God how much I love Racheal and we are just getting started in our lives together. Would I be able to tell her I love her?
Anna
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GOOBLE GOOBLE GOOBLE-Some November Thoughts !
Karen Reeves November 16th, 2008 10:00 pm MSTHi Everyone!
I hope that all of you have a great Thanksgiving. We all have, though it may not seem that way many times, so much to be thankful for. The next time you get down emotionally remember that things could be a whole lot worse. Many people are in that predicament.
Don't each too much turkey!
*Kisses*
~Karen~
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Test Entry
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Living in pink Mae Vie in Rose
Anna and Racheal November 8th, 2008 8:33 am MSTThis past week Racheal and I watched a French film that I will call living in pink. It was about this little boy who dreamed of being a girl and all the hardships he had to indure as well as his family. It really hit home on so very many levels for me, expecially how he felt he was different and in the wrong body. His desire to dress and play as a girl, until the parents took him for therapy. This part did not happen to me as I did as he did later in the movie. I just became who my parents wanted me to be a boy! I often wished I had the courage to transition earlier in life instead of waiting until now.
At this point in my life it is difficult to undo all the stuff we pretended to be for so long all the manorisms, body posturing, even mental thinking. I am feeling more and more like who I am suppose to be everyday. most of that is a thanks to my wife Racheal who is trying to help me live and be myself.
My parents are just like that boys parents, they can't or will not try to understand. I have now been labled a drug user by my own father. Because he is certain that is why I am not acting and responding to his demands and ideas of who I am suppose to be, a carbon copy of himself.
I am me!
Anna
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Purple America
Dan™ & Erin™ November 7th, 2008 3:03 pm MSTFor those of you who still think that the election was close, take a look at these two maps. One shows the counties in their actual size shaded blue or red based on what the population voted.
This map shows each county with a size set by the population. It looks a lot less red.
This is far more of the mandate the George W Bush claimed four years ago, this is a landslide. For those of you that fear a socialist government, let me just state the following:
1. Socialist nations like Denmark, Normay, Sweden and Holland have:
I've heard a lot of people claim that Obama was a socialist. He's not. I wish he was, but I would have been no more enthusiastic of his candidacy.
Be that as it may, why would socialism be so scary anyway?
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My Halloween Adventure
Denise Armel November 5th, 2008 3:49 pm MSTI have posted a picture on my profile of how I was dressed for this Halloween. Hint, the one with the feathered mask.
I started the evening going into downtown Plymouth. I stopped in to a jewelry shop, per the request of Karen, the owner who knows Denise but has never met her in person. (Just pictures of her) After some picture taking, of course, with Karen and her husband, I walked a couple of blocks along Main Street to the Nail Spa where I have my nails done regularly. All the girls in there also have seen pictures of Denise but had never met her. I had not told them that I was going to stop so when I strutted in, they and their customers really went wild, more pictures followed. Let me make note here, that the reason I had the balls, (damn it), to walk in my hometown this way, is that it was an advertised Trick or Treat event where store owners were giving out candy between 4-7pm. I was, however, the only "female" on the street without a child and/or husband in tow. The mask also helped too.
From there I went an evening at Chez Ducrot Bistro in the home of Chef Philippe Ducrot and his wife Linda. (I had spent an evening, in boy mode, last Spring observing them prepare and serve a dinner on a Saturday evening. I was exploring employment possibilities.) On this night they were hosting their annual Halloween dinner. I had hoped to go with someone, but that did not work out. Linda Durcot insisted I come anyway, in costume of course! She did not know what my costume would be. I rang the doorbell and when Linda came to the door, I announced, "David could not make it so he asked me to come in his place, I’m his cousin Denise!" Well, let me tell you, she went bonkers and could not believe her eyes. Her husband, Philippe, was speechless for several minutes! I think he liked me! I was crowned as the hostess for the evening. After carving a quick two pumpkins, I helped greet the 20 dinner guests and gave out candy to trick or treaters. The guests, some in costume, really loved Denise! My legs were definitely the hit of the evening. And of course, they wanted pictures of and with Denise. Throughout the evening, I helped serve and "entertain."
After dinner, an outdoor fire was lit and picture taking continued. The dinner wine really kicked in!
Linda Ducrot is a very loving and caring human being, and I ended up coming "out" to her. She was so accepting and encouraging. When I told her, she commented that she had a feeling about me. She had thought I was wearing more than just a costume, with the shaven legs and painted toes and, that I walked way to easily in high heals! A big hug from her really made me feel good. . A close friendship has been cultivated. What a wonderful and fun Halloween.
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