I would like to send a Heart Felt Thank You to all the People I've met here.Even thou it is only via E-mail(Kellie,Janice Marie,Bobbie)and those I forgot to mention.
I will reach out to everyone even if is only to say "Hi".I'm shy by nature so it is somewhat of a challenge to approach people I don't know.
But I have to ask a question(rofl)I was just wondering,Do any of you Ladies ever answer those guys I see on comment sections leaving their phone numbers?I am just wondering,WTF is up with that?
Anyway,
Have a Wonderfull upcoming week(even if you are a yankees fan)
I just love the fall, with the seasonal changes going full tilt! Nothing like taking a walk on a sunny, blustery day, with my skirt swishing in the breeze and my heels clicking on the pavement!
This journal enty is the first since all my computer problems, and the problems URNA had with the old format for their site. It seems that everything is working as it should be.
The neighbors who moved in the apartment below mine have come and gone in the past year. They were almost as bad as the two guys living there before. I had to put up with hearing two dogs barking at everything as well as their owners yelling at them. I actually had more peace and quiet when I was at work than I did at home. I now have another set of new neighbors who moved in downstairs. These seem to be a little better than the last, so I'll wait and see if they become loud and obnoxious like the last.
My computer seems to be running as it did before. I have upgraded it's RAM memory to 2.4Gigs. I was never able to recover the pictures I lost, but luckily I have most of them posted on my websites and in my Flickr account. I have been dressing more lately and even bought some new clothes from Victoria's Secret. I also have an even bigger "E" cup version of my Cleavage Croptop. Check out my Newest Pics gallery to view pics of them. My profile pic shows my "E" cup "girls". The Yellow dress pics are of my "D" cup "girls".
I did attend my first convention in nearly 9 years back in June this year. It was wonderful seeing my friends from years past, as well as meeting new girls who have only seen me via the Net. I also was reinstated as a member of Vanity Club, and I thank all those ladies who helped me back into the group. I love you girls!
I hope the next several months ahead will be enjoyable with the holidays soon upon us. Take care and I hope to be around more often. *Hugs*
Yesterday, my gf thought it would be fun to paint my toe nails, and I just said ok. She used a purple color thats a little shiny. I feel so pretty now ^_^
I don't normally write journal entries. I'm at a serious crossroads in my life. I'm seriously planning to transition much further. Breast augmentation, FFS, hormones, etc. I want to go to everything but SRS.
I spend all the time dreaming of transitioning further. A couple of major events in my life have changed allowing to me to do this now. I have had a very sucessful career as a man, but at a stage I am wanting to start over as a woman, even if it means giving up quite a bit.
Although I've dressed and wanted to be a girl since age 5 like the rest of us. I don't have this awful feeling as a woman trapped in a man's body. I want to become a "woman" to feel the sexual attraction of men wanting a girl. Yes, I know the term autogynophilia.
Is it wrong to want to transition because that is what drives me? Many seem to say Shemale is a derogatory word maybe because of the sex industry. For me, that is my desire (fetish?). I want to be one of those TS girls advertising her services.
Am I too old? I am concerned I won't look realistic / passable enough and should stayed in a mans body and dressed as a girl sometimes but not as seriously.
If I do breast augmentation, FFS, hormones, is it just the logical progression to SRS? Am I kidding myself I could/should go that far but not fully?
I realize I am being blunt and direct. I know a lot of girls have discussed these same things internally.
I would really advice from girls who have asked themselves these questions and have lived it.
Hi everyone! first off all I love the website :) A big thank you goes to the admins for doing such a great site for all of us girls! :)
I want to announce that "The Secret Dolls" an all original TS rock band is searching for hot talented musicians for recording, touring and lots more! If you think you have what it takes please contact me directly and please send a head shot photo and a resume with your musical background and experience. Currently we are searching for a Drummer and Bass player.. YOU MUST HAVE GREAT STAGE PRESENCE and ROCK STAR SKILLS! We are very serious about this project and are demanding the best. We are currently holding auditions in San Diego, Cleveland, NYC, and Los Angeles. If you have experience, talent, and have good sex appeal please contact us ASAP as we are planning to start rehearsing in the next couple months. We currently have shows booked and would like to start touring as soon as possible.
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Thank you for taking the time to read my Journal posting and if you know of any others HOT TS talented musicians please forward this information to them.
Thank you,
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I had a request to post this in my journal. I wrote this back in March when I first came out to my wife...
I am writing this story because I want a new start with my wife fully involved in ever aspect of my life, including my dressing.I don't want to hide anything from her anymore.No more lies.No more hiding.No more infidelity.No more shame.From now on everything is going to be different.
I met my wife Christy when she was 15.I was a couple of years older.From the first minute I saw her I loved her.It was absolutely love at first sight.We have known each other for 25 years now and have been married for 23.We have a wonderful family together.She is my wife, my lover and my best friend and I want her to be so for the rest of my life.I truly cannot live without her.
The fact that I love her so much and need her so badly has been a true blessing and also a tremendous burden.It was a burden because I had so many secrets that I wanted to share with her but couldn't because I was so afraid I would lose her.I knew that I could never replace her and my life would end if she left me.I’ve wanted to tell her about this for years but couldn’t.Which day is the best day to drive a dagger through the heart of the one you love?
I've been dressing off and on since I was about 12.Initially it was only pantyhose.As I got older it became panties, bras, lingerie, etc.Whenever I had the opportunity, I would run out and buy something, wear it once, then toss it.For years I felt that I was bad, sick, perverted, a sinner, etc.I didn’t know why I was like this and I did everything I could to stop but it wouldn’t go away.I thought about dressing all the time.That happened off and on until about a year and a half ago.I started traveling regularly on business to Austin, Houston and San Antonio so the opportunities to dress increased.I didn't dress every time I went out of town but it grew more and more frequent as time went on.
I started off buying really slutty lingerie.I would wear it once and throw it out.I wouldn’t dress for a while then I’d go out and buy something else and throw it away.I think this is a binging and purging process like a lot of alcoholics or people with eating disorders go through.You fight the need, then you give in, then you binge, then you feel shame, then you purge, then you fight the need, then the processes starts over again.
Eventually, I even started to question my own sexuality.At one point I thought that I might be gay.I even had a sexual encounter with a man.I found out that I did enjoy some aspects of it.I liked being fem.I enjoyed being the submissive one in the relationship, being slightly dominated, etc.But I realized that I didn’t find him (or any other man for that matter) attractive...at least I don’t really prefer men sexually.Now I would be lying if I didn’t admit that I find some men are very good looking or that a guy with a really nice body isn’t hot.I didn’t want to be with a man but I wanted to be the woman.I know it sounds a little confusing and I guess it is.I absolutely know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I couldn’t have an emotional relationship with a man.I’m not sure but I think I’m a lesbian.J
About a year and a half ago my wife asked me if I was having sex with someone else.I said yes.I told her that I had a sexual encounter with a man.I explained that it was because I had the desire to express my female side and be the submissive in the relationship.I also told her about my crossdressing from the time I was about 12.I didn't get into any details at the time.Just the infidelity, the fact it was with a man and that I had crossdressed in the past was a lot to handle.
As you can imagine she didn’t take it very well at first.I certainly don't blame her.At that point I was sure I was going to lose her.It took a lot of work and talking but we worked it out.She said she did understand that I was different and that was one of the reasons she had married me.
After the encounter with the guy my dressing continued to progress.I didn’t know where it was going.There was no plan.But it just kept growing and growing.
IMPORTANT NOTE:I really made a major mistake at this point that I’m not proud of.I didn’t continue the openly communicate with my wife.If at this point if I would have taken the opportunity to be totally honest with her and share all my thoughts and desires things would have been a lot better and easier.It wasn’t intentional but I wove a very tangled web that continued to get more and more elaborate.One important word of advice that I can give to anyone out there is if a door opens to be honest with your spouse about your dressing take advantage of it.
Everything changed when I bought my first pair of high heels.They were kinda expensive and I knew I couldn’t afford to just throw them out like I had the cheap lingerie.So I had to find some place to keep them.At that point I started “collecting” stuff.Once I started keeping my heels, lingerie, etc.It opened me up to building my new persona as a female.I slowly added to my collection.I eventually bought a wig and then some makeup.Buying the makeup was the hardest thing I had ever done.It is amazing how little guys know about makeup…what you need and how to apply it, etc.
When I put my wig and makeup on for the first time I was amazed.It didn’t even look like me.I didn’t look like a man in a pair of panties, I looked like a woman.A rush of emotion poured over me.I felt like a woman.My mannerisms and everything changed.It was totally different.That process or transformation really hit me.I know you girls know what I’m talking about but I just want to express my thoughts so those that are trying to find their way might benefit from it.
Eventually, dressing in full makeup and wigs and stuff made me have a strong desire to go out in public dressed.This was something that was always private.I hadn’t shared it with anyone.I now realized that I wanted to stop hiding it.
It was really scary and probably never would have ventured out by myself. I found a really sweet girl from San Antonio that agreed to take me out to some clubs if I was in town. I called her one night.She wasn't dressed but agreed to go out with me anyway...in guy mode.I got dressed in my panties and bra and she came over and helped me touch up my makeup...picked out some clothes, etc.
I was really worried about walking out of the hotel dressed. But she helped me tremendously. We got on the elevator, she gave me some words of encouragement. ..just be confident... just be yourself...you'll be fine, etc.I strolled out of the hotel like I was a movie star.I got a few looks and even some nice smiles but didn't get the impression that anyone was "freaked out" by me.
We got in the car and drove to a gay dance club in San Antonio that does drag shows and stuff.It was definitely a crowd that wouldn't be surprised to see me.We got a drink, sat and watched the drag shows and danced for a little while.It was very thrilling and I felt so free.Free of the burden of keeping this side of me private and to myself.I wasn't looking to "hook-up" with anyone that night. It wasn't about sex or anything.Just about enjoying the evening and expressing my fem side.She constantly coached me on what to do and how to act…how to sit, how to walk, etc.There was a lot to learn.
That experience really was a major event for me.I started to reach out to others that were like me and started getting to know some really incredible people.I made friends and went out in San Antonio, Austin and of course Houston where I had a chance to meet a number of you.I have come to realize that I’m not alone out there.There are many, many people just like me that are facing the same challenges.
Some of you have been incredibly helpful in my life and have given good advice that led me to a difficult, but proper decision.I had to come totally clean with my wife.Almost everyone gave me one word of warning.DO NOT OVERWHELM HER WITH TOO, MUCH TOO QUICK.The advice was to take it very slow, let her steer the ship, ask the questions, etc.
I am now officially Daniel Aloicious Saint James. I still have to get a new Social Security Card, Drivers License, etc. But it's been recognized by the court!
I'm really digging the new name.
Once I get around to getting my new ID, who wants to meet for drinks? I was thinking the "St James Tavern" on 4th? ehh ehh?
I may not get it until Monday. It depends on my schedule and such.
My friend Jackie and I went on summer holiday to northern New York State, Ohio, Indiana, Pennsylvania, and Illinois. We got out of New England just before the floods in Connecticut (7 inches of rain fell in just 4 hours!). I got water in the basement of my house for the first time since I have owned it. Thank God I had friends in the area to check up on the home (they had to wet vac the basement however). It was not much rainwater inside but even an inch can cause a huge problem when it sits around for a few weeks. My neighbors down the hill were not so lucky and had huge problems. There was massive flooding in the town where I live!
We went to Fort Stanwix in Rome, NY and then on to Seneca Falls. There was a lovely canal which Jackie and I spent some time sitting along and having a drink (2nd photo #1). It is ironic that we had picture perfect weather the whole time we were gone. There were sunny, cool days and cool nights.
We made it to Buffalo and Teddy Roosevelt Inaugural Nat. Historic Site (2nd photo #2). This is where Teddy became President after President McKinley was assassinated. President Karen Reeves (what a scary thought!!!) had her picture taken behind the President's desk (2nd photo #3). Notice how I take charge!
The two of us then headed into Ohio to Cuyahoga Valley National Park. A National Park in Northern Ohio? It's not exactly Yellowstone or Yosemite for sure! Jackie took a pic of me (2nd photo #4) on the boardwalk by Brandywine Falls. It was very nice there.
We then headed west to the town of Put-In-Bay, which sits on an island in the middle of Lake Erie reachable only by ferry boat. It was a spectacular day. The boat trip out was nice and the views from the tower in Perry's Victory and International Peace Memorial were breath taking (2nd photo #5). There were too many tourists and I almost took some out with my car. I'm not sure if it was accidental or not!
Nest stop was the Indiana Dunes National Lakeshore. Jackie and I waded into the waters of Lake Michigan (2nd photo #6). The Great Lakes are like the Atlantic Ocean but without the salty smell or feel of saltwater on your bod. We wish we had more time to spend here but we had to make some miles on this day.
We then made it to our hotel in Glenview, Illinois. My friend Jackie T. got ready to have her FFS performed on her by Dr. Mark Zukowski. She was, of course, quite nervous, but she faced the situation with great calm and determination. That's Jackie! You go girl J !!!
On Sunday, June 28th , a couple of days before her surgery, Jackie and I participated in the Chicago GLBT Pride Parade (See the Main Photo). We were on a float sponsored by Dr. Z along with a live rock band. I thought the crowds would be a few thousand. They estimated that the crowds along the route might have reached a million people! As we waved and danced we saw people lined up 20, 30, even 40 deep along the route. There were even people hanging out of apartment windows and on balconies. It was a little overwhelming for a girl from the coast of Maine but it was great fun. What an adrenaline rush! Thanks Dr. Z for the invite and for dinner!
In the next photo (2nd photo #7) I am admiring some interesting sculpture.
The nicest part of this parade was that these huge throngs of diverse people, from every background that you can imagine, were all smiles, respectful, and having a fantastic time. Smiles were the order of the day.
Jackie came through the surgery with flying colors. The next few days did not allow for much sleep for her and for me.I was her care giver and I set a new record of staying awake in hours playing nurse & maid. (I hope she does not sue me for malpractice!!! YIKES!!!). I figure I was awake for two days straight.
Jackie was doing well enough after just four days that we went out to see the fireworks on July 4th in Glenview at the golf course. It was kind of weird to be allowed to sit on the greens with chairs and blankets when normally you would be chased away. The show was great.
The next day I went back to the golf course to take some day time photos of the gold course. Two guys offered to be "male models" for my pics. I didn't know that golfing made guys soooooo HORNY!!!!
We also were lucky enough to be able to visit Brenda Sue in her new condo on the north shore. Jackie was not up for doing much but a few hours out was good for her. Brenda's pad was beautiful. She lives in a nice area along Lake Michigan It is very rural. Hey Annette! This area that you are from is NICE!!!
My only complaint is that Brenda cooked us hamburgers that must have been two pounds each. They were delicious but after all this time I AM STILL FULL! Thanks Brenda, Anne, and Colin!
It was finally time to head back east. We spent an extra day in the Pocono Mountains of Pennsylvania coming back since this return trip was hard on Jackie who was still recuperating from her surgery. By the way she is looking even more beautiful with every passing day! Drop her a line!
The last new pic of me on my page (2nd photo #8) was taken by Jackie at Pocono Downs NASCAR Raceway. This place is massive! We love NASCAR!
We arrived home safe and sound. It was time to crash!
Well the Crazy Bitch is still up to no good....Kristina came over the other day to hang out with me for a bit....Boy did i get a ear full....It's bad enough that she is living with her boyfriend Raymond...who she can't stand anymore...But now she is also seeing another guy name Bobby...He's 39 yrs old....(5 yrs younger then Kristina)...behind Raymonds back...She said she wouldn't be screwing Bobby if Raymond would pay attention to her.....Well I'm not taking sides here...But kristina has been living in Raymonds house for a year now....And not once did she get a job....she does have a little pet grooming salon in the back yard of Raymonds House......
And yes she does groom dogs.....But....she only does a couple of dogs here and there just for spending money for cigs or Crack or beer at the bar....she needs to get off her lazy ass and go get a full time job....even if it's something she don't want to do...it's something till something better comes along....She was talking about moving to Colorado with this guy name Bobby who by the way has no upper teeth....I can understand about starting over and living somewhere new to make a new start in life.....But not with some dumb ass guy that she met just a few months ago......
Whats going to happen if she goes way the fuck out there and shit hits the fan?....it's not like she has money in the bank and credit cards that could help her get back here if it don't work out....She's fucking Crazy...43 yrs old and still acting like she is in college.....Thank God i keep a job and pay my bills...don't have to worry like she does or will have to....And if she thinks for one minute that i am going to send her money to bring her ass back here...she is dead wrong...cause if i do send her cash she will spend it on crack then tell me a sob story of why she can't get on the bus or plane to get back here.....Yes she is my friend and i do like her alot...cause i see what she can be in life and all the cool things that she can do well.....But of course she don't see it....
She always say over and over again how she needs to get a full time job save some money and move....Been a Year....Nothing has happend and i do mean nothing...Her car is in Raymonds Name cause she can't offerd the insurance on it....And I'm sorry i don't see Raymond throwing her the keys and saying have a good life....
Kristina says she would leave in a Heartbeat if Raymond Gives her 3 thousand dollars to leave....Once again i can't see Raymond writing her a check for 3 grand...I'll keep u posted on her
The shit never ends here...Soon as u think the water is calm...shit hits the fan again...My friend Walt right now at this very moment is in our local Hospital getting his middle toe cut off....Why?.....cause it is infected...which is the result of not taking care of himself....See Walt is wierd....he let his toe nails grow and grow...to the point where his nails couldn't go anywhere but be pushed back into the skin ...what a fucking dumb ass....he could of gotton a pair of nail clippers for a couple of bucks at Walmart.......and advoided this whole situation....
While i was at work last night he texxed me from his Hospital Bed trying to convince me that he got a hand Job from a 27 yr old nurse.....LMAO.....Right.....sorry That never fucking happend...like his friend Bill said last night..if that was true....half of the men in this town would be in the Hospital.....He must be on some good drugs
Now an update on my Roomate Heather....She's still a Crazy fucken Bitch....But in all honesty i do like her....Why?....Don't know Yet....Last week...while her boyfriend Jason was at his place sleeping cause he had to be at work at 5 in the morning.....Heathers x boyfriend came by here and took her to a motel with a hot tub in the room....Did Crack...gave her x a blowjob....then came home 9 hrs later...trying to tell me that giving her x boyfriend a blow job was not cheating on Jason......Am i missing something here?.....I feel that means cheating....if I'm wrong then so be it....Her foodstamps were cut off cause they found out she was getting unemployment.....Did she get a job yet?......Nope.....I'll keep u posted...By the way....No Poor jason doesn't know what Heather did behind his back....
My Roomate Heather is a fucking trip...she's 35 yrs old....very cute girl....stands about 4 foot 11...Red hair...and a non stop yacking machine...I love her to death..as a friend and roomate....But she needs to get her shit together...As far as help keeping this place clean...she's dam good at it....
Right now she's on unemployment....June is when her checks will stop coming...She needs a job...she knows this....cause she mentions it almost everyday...But she doesn't do anything about it...What she does do is....sleep all fucking day till 1 or 2pm.....then she watches her stupid soaps...(have no clue which ones )...she'll then take a shower....and then she pops open a beer...and thats the rest of her day
She's a fucking trip...I first met her a year ago....she was my nieghbor who lived out back in apt 14 with her boyfriend at the time name Joey....(the little Hippy)...together as a couple they seemed good for each other....but i guess it wasn't behind closed doors...To make a long story short...Joey met a girl at work named Amy....and 3 weeks later he moved in with her and her 2 young kids....Just left Heather...I felt bad for her...But then i found out she was fucking around with the maintance man name Dan that works on our property...Jesus Christ..no wonder why he left her...
But as the story goes....she moved in here..she loves it...She hasn't worked since oct of 08...she can work...she just doesn't want to....lazy Bitch...And she has a habbit of hanging with all the guys that live out back....But she does have a boyfriend named Jason....(in time i will write about him)...I like him....he's a bit goofy but he has a good heart and this man works...
I'll tell u what's going to happend....come june...when Heathers unemployment runs out...she is going to end up moving in with Jason....Now he only has a room that he is renting down the street from us...he has his own private bathroom...but there is no kitchen in his room....he does have a fridge and a microwave...All i want sweet Heather to do is put the fucking beer down and go get a job.....I myself smoke pot on a daily basis...But i also work and keep a job and pay my bills...I'd like to see her get it together a little bit more.....I'll keep u posted on this person as well
About 2 yrs ago i met this girl named Kristina...she moved in here and rented the second biggest bedroom...when i first met her she had a job grooming dogs at a Pet store thats about 3 miles from the house...She was cool and yes i liked her...She's my age but a year younger...real pretty greek girl..(straight)..about 5 foot 7...a little on the chunky side...but it didn't matter cause her looks made up for it...
When we first met we hit it off right from the word start...While she was living here she had a crack probblem....i didn't know this at first...she was real hush hush about it...then one day she asked me if i smoked it....told her no....but i did in my late teens cause it was the thing to do in the early 1980's.....
Kristina was a trip....and still is today...she has a friend of her's name Rick that she has known for 15 yrs i guess...Rick is a Piece of shit in my book...he can get the best fucking crack in town...BUT...he makes kristina sleep with him for the stuff...and of course Kristina goes right along with it...cause number one...she knows Rick for many years...and number 2 the Bitch is addicted to it....
One time i said fuck it...I'll buy about 300 dollars of the shit through Rick..hook him up for getting it for me...then turn Kristinia on....Just to see what she is like when she is high off of Crack...OH MY GOD.....LMAO....I don't see how Rick fucks her while she is on it cause the Bitch does not sit still for one minute...she kept on walking around the room....peeping out the window blinds...looking under her bed..looking in her closet....going in the kitchen looking in there...she told me she thinks someone is watching her...or thats how she feels...As for me i just sat there at the kitchen table drinking a cold beer watching her do this over and over again
Well that was the first time i did that with her...and it was the last time....(just didn't buy anymore)...Now of course Kristina keeps on doing it...sometimes i would sit there with her while she is hitting the crack pipe...and i would smoke my weed from my lovely Bong that i call a Tokemaster....and just watch her while shaking my head...
The crack got to her...finally one day she lost her job at the grooming place...But of course Mommy and Daddy paid her bills till she got another job....while she was looking for work...she stopped at a local hole in the wall bar and met a fruit cake name Raymond
It was love and lust at first sight for the both of them...3 weeks later she moved out of here and moved into his place....which is a house about 2 miles from me....It was a fucked up situation to begin with...and it still is to this day...Raymond didn't work when i first met him...he was on unemployment...so instead of looking for work he would sit on his laptop all day at the eBay website....selling and trading anything and everything that had to do with Miami Dolpohnes football shit...and drink fucking Rumple mints liquir....
When kristina first met him she was in love...today she is lost but still living with him....and no Kristina doesn't work....why should she...she has it made....the house that Raymond has is in his fathers name so his daddy pays for the 500 a month morgage...plus daddy pays the electric....only thing Raymond has to pay is food and the gas bill...thats it.....Raymond finally got a job at Wendys...doing grill work...yes the bastard flips burgers 6 days a week....Now why would this 40 yr old man who has been in construction all his life turn to Wendys for a job?....Simple...
He went to jail for DUI...and while he was in he got the job at Wendys...work release i guess u call it...while he was behind bars....fucking Kristina took over the house and made it into a crack house...now that Raymond is out of jail and back living in the house...it's back to normal meaning no more crack..(at least at that location)...But plenty of drinking and Drama....What will happen next is anyones guess...I'll keep u posted
I can't beleave my friend and CoWorker Walt...that son of a bitch has a death wish..He's still fucking around with that 25 yr old girl from McDonalds...He asked me yesterday if i would switch shifts with him so he can go fuck this girl while her boyfriend was at work
What a Asshole...I don't get it....he has kids that age...He tells me..that he knows in his heart that he will never be married to this girl or even live with her cause of thee age difference....But he has no probblem fucking her till it's over...I can tell he pushes sex on her....cause when she asks him what would u like to do for the day...he responds by saying You know what i want....My God...what an ass...I do like this guy...he's good to work with cause he does his job pretty good at the plant...And yes we do work together a couple of times a week...And we do talk shit to each other....But what he really needs to do is find someone his own goddam age..and stop fucking around with these young kids who have no life...or is lost in life...Yes she is 25 and a woman...but i met her...she is cute...but she is dumb as a bag of rocks....and fucking Walt is taking that for his advantage
One day...either she will walk away....or her boyfriend is going to beat the living shit out of Walt and probably kick her ass out of the apartment..it's just a matter of time...He thinks he is all bad and cool cause of his little girlfriend...Personaly myself i don't have a probblem dating younger people...Nothing under 30 yrs old...Why?...Because thats my choice
So today was my day off from work....Didn't do to much of anything...Didn't eat anything all day long except for coffee and some bottle water...So while i was in chat today at about 4 pm...i started to get hungry...But of course since I'm a woman i can't decide on Pizza from Jerry and Sals...or a thick juicy steak at a Sports Bar....
But i made the right choice and decided on the steak.....Went to this cool sports bar thats about a 15 minute walk from my house....Went inside and sat at the bar...it wasn't really busy in there and of course the bar staff were all new people..(As Always)...I ordered a kalua and Cream...(I do like those also...I don't always drink Jack Daniels)...Sitting next to me to my right were 2 young guys....they were both drinking beer and taking shots of Jack...one of the guys that was sitting next to me was celebrating his 21st Birthday with his buddy...Birthday Boy decided to slide over to me while i was reading the menu...lol...I must admit he was a cute little young thing....While i was ordering my steak he decided to buy me a shot of Jack and join him and his little friend who was only 22 yrs old
So Guess what?......I did.....i slid over to where they were....they both shook my hand and told me there Names.....Mike is the Birthday boy....and David is the little 22 yr old....we chatted a little manely about my bike that was right there out the window.....Then the 3 of us took our shots....Then Birthday boy decides to order himself a long Island Ice tea....why not....he can...he's 21 today....lol....My food came out...man was it good i love the way they cook your steaks in the kitchen on a fire grill....Outter crust...inside soft and juicy....Yum Yum...
While i was eating...Birthday Boy decides to order all 3 of us another round of jack....so he did...we all took our shot.....soon as i slid to the empty seat next to me to grab a napkin where the salt and Pepper was......Birthday Boy blew his cookies all over the bar...his friend got sprayed...if i didn't move i would of gotten sprayed also......LMAO....This Poor kid probably won't remember anything in the morning....Even thow...i never met these 2 goof balls before in my life....I had a pretty good time with them
Keeping in touch
Frank October 26th, 2009 8:48 am MDTGood Morning,
I would like to send a Heart Felt Thank You to all the People I've met here.Even thou it is only via E-mail(Kellie,Janice Marie,Bobbie)and those I forgot to mention.
I will reach out to everyone even if is only to say "Hi".I'm shy by nature so it is somewhat of a challenge to approach people I don't know.
But I have to ask a question(rofl)I was just wondering,Do any of you Ladies ever answer those guys I see on comment sections leaving their phone numbers?I am just wondering,WTF is up with that?
Anyway,
Have a Wonderfull upcoming week(even if you are a yankees fan)
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I love the fall!
Geena Beth White October 25th, 2009 11:10 am MDTI just love the fall, with the seasonal changes going full tilt! Nothing like taking a walk on a sunny, blustery day, with my skirt swishing in the breeze and my heels clicking on the pavement!
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Since my last entry....
Linda Lewis October 19th, 2009 4:23 pm MDTThis journal enty is the first since all my computer problems, and the problems URNA had with the old format for their site. It seems that everything is working as it should be.
The neighbors who moved in the apartment below mine have come and gone in the past year. They were almost as bad as the two guys living there before. I had to put up with hearing two dogs barking at everything as well as their owners yelling at them. I actually had more peace and quiet when I was at work than I did at home. I now have another set of new neighbors who moved in downstairs. These seem to be a little better than the last, so I'll wait and see if they become loud and obnoxious like the last.
My computer seems to be running as it did before. I have upgraded it's RAM memory to 2.4Gigs. I was never able to recover the pictures I lost, but luckily I have most of them posted on my websites and in my Flickr account. I have been dressing more lately and even bought some new clothes from Victoria's Secret. I also have an even bigger "E" cup version of my Cleavage Croptop. Check out my Newest Pics gallery to view pics of them. My profile pic shows my "E" cup "girls". The Yellow dress pics are of my "D" cup "girls".
I did attend my first convention in nearly 9 years back in June this year. It was wonderful seeing my friends from years past, as well as meeting new girls who have only seen me via the Net. I also was reinstated as a member of Vanity Club, and I thank all those ladies who helped me back into the group. I love you girls!
I hope the next several months ahead will be enjoyable with the holidays soon upon us. Take care and I hope to be around more often. *Hugs*
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Toe Nails
Sakura The Cutie October 4th, 2009 8:42 pm MDTYesterday, my gf thought it would be fun to paint my toe nails, and I just said ok. She used a purple color thats a little shiny. I feel so pretty now ^_^
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Jessica Linden September 13th, 2009 10:28 pm MDTFrom the world I must hide
What's the real me on the inside
For if they knew I'd look like a fool
And in the end it would only bring ridicule
There's the part that I let them see
Still, there's a much deeper part of me
A part that wonders what to do
Everytime that I think of you
It's the part that cries in the night
And longs for everything to turn out right
Remembering when you went away
And how I still love you to this very day
So I'm still here all alone
Just sitting here staring at the phone
Hoping it'll ring, you'll be on the other end
Just called to say "Hi, I miss you my friend"
I'll go to bed thinking of you
For tomorrow I shall start anew
A whole new world I shall find
And leave the old one far behind
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Jessica Linden September 13th, 2009 10:18 pm MDTThinking of you still today
About the time you went away
I wasn't enough to keep you around
You had a job in another town
You had to go to get on with your life
But for me, it cut like a knife
You didn't look back heading for the door
But if you had, it would have only hurt more
Said you had to go, and I understood why
At least you didn't say "Goodbye"
As much as I needed for you to stay
If you did, I'd just be in your way
I see that it wasn't all you
In all honesty, it was me too
Through it all, I need you to see
I'm eternally thankfull that you cared about me
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Lexy Alexis Mccloud September 12th, 2009 5:08 pm MDTI realized I spelled it wrong...Duh.
autogynephilia
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At Crossroads
Lexy Alexis Mccloud September 12th, 2009 2:59 pm MDTHi Girls,
I don't normally write journal entries. I'm at a serious crossroads in my life. I'm seriously planning to transition much further. Breast augmentation, FFS, hormones, etc. I want to go to everything but SRS.
I spend all the time dreaming of transitioning further. A couple of major events in my life have changed allowing to me to do this now. I have had a very sucessful career as a man, but at a stage I am wanting to start over as a woman, even if it means giving up quite a bit.
Although I've dressed and wanted to be a girl since age 5 like the rest of us. I don't have this awful feeling as a woman trapped in a man's body. I want to become a "woman" to feel the sexual attraction of men wanting a girl. Yes, I know the term autogynophilia.
Is it wrong to want to transition because that is what drives me? Many seem to say Shemale is a derogatory word maybe because of the sex industry. For me, that is my desire (fetish?). I want to be one of those TS girls advertising her services.
Am I too old? I am concerned I won't look realistic / passable enough and should stayed in a mans body and dressed as a girl sometimes but not as seriously.
If I do breast augmentation, FFS, hormones, is it just the logical progression to SRS? Am I kidding myself I could/should go that far but not fully?
I realize I am being blunt and direct. I know a lot of girls have discussed these same things internally.
I would really advice from girls who have asked themselves these questions and have lived it.
Thanks girls. Lexy
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Jessica Linden September 11th, 2009 12:40 am MDTI've heard it said so many times
That time heals all wounds
But nobody says anything
About the memories it leaves behind
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The Secret Dolls seeking Drummer and Bass Player!
Tawni Summer September 5th, 2009 11:17 am MDTHi everyone! first off all I love the website :) A big thank you goes to the admins for doing such a great site for all of us girls! :)
I want to announce that "The Secret Dolls" an all original TS rock band is searching for hot talented musicians for recording, touring and lots more! If you think you have what it takes please contact me directly and please send a head shot photo and a resume with your musical background and experience. Currently we are searching for a Drummer and Bass player.. YOU MUST HAVE GREAT STAGE PRESENCE and ROCK STAR SKILLS! We are very serious about this project and are demanding the best. We are currently holding auditions in San Diego, Cleveland, NYC, and Los Angeles. If you have experience, talent, and have good sex appeal please contact us ASAP as we are planning to start rehearsing in the next couple months. We currently have shows booked and would like to start touring as soon as possible.
You can view the bands website at http://thesecretdolls.com and email us at: contact@thesecretdolls.com
Thank you for taking the time to read my Journal posting and if you know of any others HOT TS talented musicians please forward this information to them.
Thank you,
Tawni Summer
"The Secret Dolls"
www.thesecretdolls.com
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In The Beginning...
Allie Summers August 11th, 2009 9:23 am MDTI had a request to post this in my journal. I wrote this back in March when I first came out to my wife...
I am writing this story because I want a new start with my wife fully involved in ever aspect of my life, including my dressing. I don't want to hide anything from her anymore. No more lies. No more hiding. No more infidelity. No more shame. From now on everything is going to be different.
I met my wife Christy when she was 15. I was a couple of years older. From the first minute I saw her I loved her. It was absolutely love at first sight. We have known each other for 25 years now and have been married for 23. We have a wonderful family together. She is my wife, my lover and my best friend and I want her to be so for the rest of my life. I truly cannot live without her.
The fact that I love her so much and need her so badly has been a true blessing and also a tremendous burden. It was a burden because I had so many secrets that I wanted to share with her but couldn't because I was so afraid I would lose her. I knew that I could never replace her and my life would end if she left me. I’ve wanted to tell her about this for years but couldn’t. Which day is the best day to drive a dagger through the heart of the one you love?
I've been dressing off and on since I was about 12. Initially it was only pantyhose. As I got older it became panties, bras, lingerie, etc. Whenever I had the opportunity, I would run out and buy something, wear it once, then toss it. For years I felt that I was bad, sick, perverted, a sinner, etc. I didn’t know why I was like this and I did everything I could to stop but it wouldn’t go away. I thought about dressing all the time. That happened off and on until about a year and a half ago. I started traveling regularly on business to Austin, Houston and San Antonio so the opportunities to dress increased. I didn't dress every time I went out of town but it grew more and more frequent as time went on.
I started off buying really slutty lingerie. I would wear it once and throw it out. I wouldn’t dress for a while then I’d go out and buy something else and throw it away. I think this is a binging and purging process like a lot of alcoholics or people with eating disorders go through. You fight the need, then you give in, then you binge, then you feel shame, then you purge, then you fight the need, then the processes starts over again.
Eventually, I even started to question my own sexuality. At one point I thought that I might be gay. I even had a sexual encounter with a man. I found out that I did enjoy some aspects of it. I liked being fem. I enjoyed being the submissive one in the relationship, being slightly dominated, etc. But I realized that I didn’t find him (or any other man for that matter) attractive...at least I don’t really prefer men sexually. Now I would be lying if I didn’t admit that I find some men are very good looking or that a guy with a really nice body isn’t hot. I didn’t want to be with a man but I wanted to be the woman. I know it sounds a little confusing and I guess it is. I absolutely know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I couldn’t have an emotional relationship with a man. I’m not sure but I think I’m a lesbian. J
About a year and a half ago my wife asked me if I was having sex with someone else. I said yes. I told her that I had a sexual encounter with a man. I explained that it was because I had the desire to express my female side and be the submissive in the relationship. I also told her about my crossdressing from the time I was about 12. I didn't get into any details at the time. Just the infidelity, the fact it was with a man and that I had crossdressed in the past was a lot to handle.
As you can imagine she didn’t take it very well at first. I certainly don't blame her. At that point I was sure I was going to lose her. It took a lot of work and talking but we worked it out. She said she did understand that I was different and that was one of the reasons she had married me.
After the encounter with the guy my dressing continued to progress. I didn’t know where it was going. There was no plan. But it just kept growing and growing.
IMPORTANT NOTE: I really made a major mistake at this point that I’m not proud of. I didn’t continue the openly communicate with my wife. If at this point if I would have taken the opportunity to be totally honest with her and share all my thoughts and desires things would have been a lot better and easier. It wasn’t intentional but I wove a very tangled web that continued to get more and more elaborate. One important word of advice that I can give to anyone out there is if a door opens to be honest with your spouse about your dressing take advantage of it.
Everything changed when I bought my first pair of high heels. They were kinda expensive and I knew I couldn’t afford to just throw them out like I had the cheap lingerie. So I had to find some place to keep them. At that point I started “collecting” stuff. Once I started keeping my heels, lingerie, etc. It opened me up to building my new persona as a female. I slowly added to my collection. I eventually bought a wig and then some makeup. Buying the makeup was the hardest thing I had ever done. It is amazing how little guys know about makeup…what you need and how to apply it, etc.
When I put my wig and makeup on for the first time I was amazed. It didn’t even look like me. I didn’t look like a man in a pair of panties, I looked like a woman. A rush of emotion poured over me. I felt like a woman. My mannerisms and everything changed. It was totally different. That process or transformation really hit me. I know you girls know what I’m talking about but I just want to express my thoughts so those that are trying to find their way might benefit from it.
Eventually, dressing in full makeup and wigs and stuff made me have a strong desire to go out in public dressed. This was something that was always private. I hadn’t shared it with anyone. I now realized that I wanted to stop hiding it.
It was really scary and probably never would have ventured out by myself. I found a really sweet girl from San Antonio that agreed to take me out to some clubs if I was in town. I called her one night. She wasn't dressed but agreed to go out with me anyway...in guy mode. I got dressed in my panties and bra and she came over and helped me touch up my makeup...picked out some clothes, etc.
I was really worried about walking out of the hotel dressed. But she helped me tremendously. We got on the elevator, she gave me some words of encouragement. ..just be confident... just be yourself...you'll be fine, etc. I strolled out of the hotel like I was a movie star. I got a few looks and even some nice smiles but didn't get the impression that anyone was "freaked out" by me.
We got in the car and drove to a gay dance club in San Antonio that does drag shows and stuff. It was definitely a crowd that wouldn't be surprised to see me. We got a drink, sat and watched the drag shows and danced for a little while. It was very thrilling and I felt so free. Free of the burden of keeping this side of me private and to myself. I wasn't looking to "hook-up" with anyone that night. It wasn't about sex or anything. Just about enjoying the evening and expressing my fem side. She constantly coached me on what to do and how to act…how to sit, how to walk, etc. There was a lot to learn.
That experience really was a major event for me. I started to reach out to others that were like me and started getting to know some really incredible people. I made friends and went out in San Antonio, Austin and of course Houston where I had a chance to meet a number of you. I have come to realize that I’m not alone out there. There are many, many people just like me that are facing the same challenges.
Some of you have been incredibly helpful in my life and have given good advice that led me to a difficult, but proper decision. I had to come totally clean with my wife. Almost everyone gave me one word of warning. DO NOT OVERWHELM HER WITH TOO, MUCH TOO QUICK. The advice was to take it very slow, let her steer the ship, ask the questions, etc.
Until next time....
Kisses,
Allie Summers
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Daniel Aloicious Saint James
Dan™ A Saint James August 6th, 2009 3:52 pm MDTI am now officially Daniel Aloicious Saint James. I still have to get a new Social Security Card, Drivers License, etc. But it's been recognized by the court!
I'm really digging the new name.
Once I get around to getting my new ID, who wants to meet for drinks? I was thinking the "St James Tavern" on 4th? ehh ehh?
I may not get it until Monday. It depends on my schedule and such.
Anyway, that is all. :)
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July 09: Chicago GLBT, Vacation & Jackie's FFS
Karen Reeves July 26th, 2009 3:55 pm MDTMy friend Jackie and I went on summer holiday to northern New York State, Ohio, Indiana, Pennsylvania, and Illinois. We got out of New England just before the floods in Connecticut (7 inches of rain fell in just 4 hours!). I got water in the basement of my house for the first time since I have owned it. Thank God I had friends in the area to check up on the home (they had to wet vac the basement however). It was not much rainwater inside but even an inch can cause a huge problem when it sits around for a few weeks. My neighbors down the hill were not so lucky and had huge problems. There was massive flooding in the town where I live!
We went to Fort Stanwix in Rome, NY and then on to Seneca Falls. There was a lovely canal which Jackie and I spent some time sitting along and having a drink (2nd photo #1). It is ironic that we had picture perfect weather the whole time we were gone. There were sunny, cool days and cool nights.
We made it to Buffalo and Teddy Roosevelt Inaugural Nat. Historic Site (2nd photo #2). This is where Teddy became President after President McKinley was assassinated. President Karen Reeves (what a scary thought!!!) had her picture taken behind the President's desk (2nd photo #3). Notice how I take charge!
The two of us then headed into Ohio to Cuyahoga Valley National Park. A National Park in Northern Ohio? It's not exactly Yellowstone or Yosemite for sure! Jackie took a pic of me (2nd photo #4) on the boardwalk by Brandywine Falls. It was very nice there.
We then headed west to the town of Put-In-Bay, which sits on an island in the middle of Lake Erie reachable only by ferry boat. It was a spectacular day. The boat trip out was nice and the views from the tower in Perry's Victory and International Peace Memorial were breath taking (2nd photo #5). There were too many tourists and I almost took some out with my car. I'm not sure if it was accidental or not!
Nest stop was the Indiana Dunes National Lakeshore. Jackie and I waded into the waters of Lake Michigan (2nd photo #6). The Great Lakes are like the Atlantic Ocean but without the salty smell or feel of saltwater on your bod. We wish we had more time to spend here but we had to make some miles on this day.
We then made it to our hotel in Glenview, Illinois. My friend Jackie T. got ready to have her FFS performed on her by Dr. Mark Zukowski. She was, of course, quite nervous, but she faced the situation with great calm and determination. That's Jackie! You go girl J !!!
On Sunday, June 28th , a couple of days before her surgery, Jackie and I participated in the Chicago GLBT Pride Parade (See the Main Photo). We were on a float sponsored by Dr. Z along with a live rock band. I thought the crowds would be a few thousand. They estimated that the crowds along the route might have reached a million people! As we waved and danced we saw people lined up 20, 30, even 40 deep along the route. There were even people hanging out of apartment windows and on balconies. It was a little overwhelming for a girl from the coast of Maine but it was great fun. What an adrenaline rush! Thanks Dr. Z for the invite and for dinner!
In the next photo (2nd photo #7) I am admiring some interesting sculpture.
The nicest part of this parade was that these huge throngs of diverse people, from every background that you can imagine, were all smiles, respectful, and having a fantastic time. Smiles were the order of the day.
Jackie came through the surgery with flying colors. The next few days did not allow for much sleep for her and for me.I was her care giver and I set a new record of staying awake in hours playing nurse & maid. (I hope she does not sue me for malpractice!!! YIKES!!!). I figure I was awake for two days straight.
Jackie was doing well enough after just four days that we went out to see the fireworks on July 4th in Glenview at the golf course. It was kind of weird to be allowed to sit on the greens with chairs and blankets when normally you would be chased away. The show was great.
The next day I went back to the golf course to take some day time photos of the gold course. Two guys offered to be "male models" for my pics. I didn't know that golfing made guys soooooo HORNY!!!!
We also were lucky enough to be able to visit Brenda Sue in her new condo on the north shore. Jackie was not up for doing much but a few hours out was good for her. Brenda's pad was beautiful. She lives in a nice area along Lake Michigan It is very rural. Hey Annette! This area that you are from is NICE!!!
My only complaint is that Brenda cooked us hamburgers that must have been two pounds each. They were delicious but after all this time I AM STILL FULL! Thanks Brenda, Anne, and Colin!
It was finally time to head back east. We spent an extra day in the Pocono Mountains of Pennsylvania coming back since this return trip was hard on Jackie who was still recuperating from her surgery. By the way she is looking even more beautiful with every passing day! Drop her a line!
The last new pic of me on my page (2nd photo #8) was taken by Jackie at Pocono Downs NASCAR Raceway. This place is massive! We love NASCAR!
We arrived home safe and sound. It was time to crash!
*Kisses*
~Karen~
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Update on my friend Kristina
Barbara May 5th, 2009 1:48 pm MDTWell the Crazy Bitch is still up to no good....Kristina came over the other day to hang out with me for a bit....Boy did i get a ear full....It's bad enough that she is living with her boyfriend Raymond...who she can't stand anymore...But now she is also seeing another guy name Bobby...He's 39 yrs old....(5 yrs younger then Kristina)...behind Raymonds back...She said she wouldn't be screwing Bobby if Raymond would pay attention to her.....Well I'm not taking sides here...But kristina has been living in Raymonds house for a year now....And not once did she get a job....she does have a little pet grooming salon in the back yard of Raymonds House......
And yes she does groom dogs.....But....she only does a couple of dogs here and there just for spending money for cigs or Crack or beer at the bar....she needs to get off her lazy ass and go get a full time job....even if it's something she don't want to do...it's something till something better comes along....She was talking about moving to Colorado with this guy name Bobby who by the way has no upper teeth....I can understand about starting over and living somewhere new to make a new start in life.....But not with some dumb ass guy that she met just a few months ago......
Whats going to happen if she goes way the fuck out there and shit hits the fan?....it's not like she has money in the bank and credit cards that could help her get back here if it don't work out....She's fucking Crazy...43 yrs old and still acting like she is in college.....Thank God i keep a job and pay my bills...don't have to worry like she does or will have to....And if she thinks for one minute that i am going to send her money to bring her ass back here...she is dead wrong...cause if i do send her cash she will spend it on crack then tell me a sob story of why she can't get on the bus or plane to get back here.....Yes she is my friend and i do like her alot...cause i see what she can be in life and all the cool things that she can do well.....But of course she don't see it....
She always say over and over again how she needs to get a full time job save some money and move....Been a Year....Nothing has happend and i do mean nothing...Her car is in Raymonds Name cause she can't offerd the insurance on it....And I'm sorry i don't see Raymond throwing her the keys and saying have a good life....
Kristina says she would leave in a Heartbeat if Raymond Gives her 3 thousand dollars to leave....Once again i can't see Raymond writing her a check for 3 grand...I'll keep u posted on her
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Update on Walt and My roomate Heather
Barbara May 1st, 2009 11:05 am MDTThe shit never ends here...Soon as u think the water is calm...shit hits the fan again...My friend Walt right now at this very moment is in our local Hospital getting his middle toe cut off....Why?.....cause it is infected...which is the result of not taking care of himself....See Walt is wierd....he let his toe nails grow and grow...to the point where his nails couldn't go anywhere but be pushed back into the skin ...what a fucking dumb ass....he could of gotton a pair of nail clippers for a couple of bucks at Walmart.......and advoided this whole situation....
While i was at work last night he texxed me from his Hospital Bed trying to convince me that he got a hand Job from a 27 yr old nurse.....LMAO.....Right.....sorry That never fucking happend...like his friend Bill said last night..if that was true....half of the men in this town would be in the Hospital.....He must be on some good drugs
Now an update on my Roomate Heather....She's still a Crazy fucken Bitch....But in all honesty i do like her....Why?....Don't know Yet....Last week...while her boyfriend Jason was at his place sleeping cause he had to be at work at 5 in the morning.....Heathers x boyfriend came by here and took her to a motel with a hot tub in the room....Did Crack...gave her x a blowjob....then came home 9 hrs later...trying to tell me that giving her x boyfriend a blow job was not cheating on Jason......Am i missing something here?.....I feel that means cheating....if I'm wrong then so be it....Her foodstamps were cut off cause they found out she was getting unemployment.....Did she get a job yet?......Nope.....I'll keep u posted...By the way....No Poor jason doesn't know what Heather did behind his back....
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A pox on our house!
Nicole Asahi April 27th, 2009 5:08 pm MDTA picture is worth a thousand Web pages:
http://www.slate.com/id/2216238/
Sigh! Who knew Mad Cowboy disease could be so devastating!
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My Roomate Heather
Barbara April 19th, 2009 7:56 am MDTMy Roomate Heather is a fucking trip...she's 35 yrs old....very cute girl....stands about 4 foot 11...Red hair...and a non stop yacking machine...I love her to death..as a friend and roomate....But she needs to get her shit together...As far as help keeping this place clean...she's dam good at it....
Right now she's on unemployment....June is when her checks will stop coming...She needs a job...she knows this....cause she mentions it almost everyday...But she doesn't do anything about it...What she does do is....sleep all fucking day till 1 or 2pm.....then she watches her stupid soaps...(have no clue which ones )...she'll then take a shower....and then she pops open a beer...and thats the rest of her day
She's a fucking trip...I first met her a year ago....she was my nieghbor who lived out back in apt 14 with her boyfriend at the time name Joey....(the little Hippy)...together as a couple they seemed good for each other....but i guess it wasn't behind closed doors...To make a long story short...Joey met a girl at work named Amy....and 3 weeks later he moved in with her and her 2 young kids....Just left Heather...I felt bad for her...But then i found out she was fucking around with the maintance man name Dan that works on our property...Jesus Christ..no wonder why he left her...
But as the story goes....she moved in here..she loves it...She hasn't worked since oct of 08...she can work...she just doesn't want to....lazy Bitch...And she has a habbit of hanging with all the guys that live out back....But she does have a boyfriend named Jason....(in time i will write about him)...I like him....he's a bit goofy but he has a good heart and this man works...
I'll tell u what's going to happend....come june...when Heathers unemployment runs out...she is going to end up moving in with Jason....Now he only has a room that he is renting down the street from us...he has his own private bathroom...but there is no kitchen in his room....he does have a fridge and a microwave...All i want sweet Heather to do is put the fucking beer down and go get a job.....I myself smoke pot on a daily basis...But i also work and keep a job and pay my bills...I'd like to see her get it together a little bit more.....I'll keep u posted on this person as well
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My Friend Kristina
Barbara April 17th, 2009 11:19 am MDTAbout 2 yrs ago i met this girl named Kristina...she moved in here and rented the second biggest bedroom...when i first met her she had a job grooming dogs at a Pet store thats about 3 miles from the house...She was cool and yes i liked her...She's my age but a year younger...real pretty greek girl..(straight)..about 5 foot 7...a little on the chunky side...but it didn't matter cause her looks made up for it...
When we first met we hit it off right from the word start...While she was living here she had a crack probblem....i didn't know this at first...she was real hush hush about it...then one day she asked me if i smoked it....told her no....but i did in my late teens cause it was the thing to do in the early 1980's.....
Kristina was a trip....and still is today...she has a friend of her's name Rick that she has known for 15 yrs i guess...Rick is a Piece of shit in my book...he can get the best fucking crack in town...BUT...he makes kristina sleep with him for the stuff...and of course Kristina goes right along with it...cause number one...she knows Rick for many years...and number 2 the Bitch is addicted to it....
One time i said fuck it...I'll buy about 300 dollars of the shit through Rick..hook him up for getting it for me...then turn Kristinia on....Just to see what she is like when she is high off of Crack...OH MY GOD.....LMAO....I don't see how Rick fucks her while she is on it cause the Bitch does not sit still for one minute...she kept on walking around the room....peeping out the window blinds...looking under her bed..looking in her closet....going in the kitchen looking in there...she told me she thinks someone is watching her...or thats how she feels...As for me i just sat there at the kitchen table drinking a cold beer watching her do this over and over again
Well that was the first time i did that with her...and it was the last time....(just didn't buy anymore)...Now of course Kristina keeps on doing it...sometimes i would sit there with her while she is hitting the crack pipe...and i would smoke my weed from my lovely Bong that i call a Tokemaster....and just watch her while shaking my head...
The crack got to her...finally one day she lost her job at the grooming place...But of course Mommy and Daddy paid her bills till she got another job....while she was looking for work...she stopped at a local hole in the wall bar and met a fruit cake name Raymond
It was love and lust at first sight for the both of them...3 weeks later she moved out of here and moved into his place....which is a house about 2 miles from me....It was a fucked up situation to begin with...and it still is to this day...Raymond didn't work when i first met him...he was on unemployment...so instead of looking for work he would sit on his laptop all day at the eBay website....selling and trading anything and everything that had to do with Miami Dolpohnes football shit...and drink fucking Rumple mints liquir....
When kristina first met him she was in love...today she is lost but still living with him....and no Kristina doesn't work....why should she...she has it made....the house that Raymond has is in his fathers name so his daddy pays for the 500 a month morgage...plus daddy pays the electric....only thing Raymond has to pay is food and the gas bill...thats it.....Raymond finally got a job at Wendys...doing grill work...yes the bastard flips burgers 6 days a week....Now why would this 40 yr old man who has been in construction all his life turn to Wendys for a job?....Simple...
He went to jail for DUI...and while he was in he got the job at Wendys...work release i guess u call it...while he was behind bars....fucking Kristina took over the house and made it into a crack house...now that Raymond is out of jail and back living in the house...it's back to normal meaning no more crack..(at least at that location)...But plenty of drinking and Drama....What will happen next is anyones guess...I'll keep u posted
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Walt is a fucking Pig
Barbara April 16th, 2009 11:35 am MDTI can't beleave my friend and CoWorker Walt...that son of a bitch has a death wish..He's still fucking around with that 25 yr old girl from McDonalds...He asked me yesterday if i would switch shifts with him so he can go fuck this girl while her boyfriend was at work
What a Asshole...I don't get it....he has kids that age...He tells me..that he knows in his heart that he will never be married to this girl or even live with her cause of thee age difference....But he has no probblem fucking her till it's over...I can tell he pushes sex on her....cause when she asks him what would u like to do for the day...he responds by saying You know what i want....My God...what an ass...I do like this guy...he's good to work with cause he does his job pretty good at the plant...And yes we do work together a couple of times a week...And we do talk shit to each other....But what he really needs to do is find someone his own goddam age..and stop fucking around with these young kids who have no life...or is lost in life...Yes she is 25 and a woman...but i met her...she is cute...but she is dumb as a bag of rocks....and fucking Walt is taking that for his advantage
One day...either she will walk away....or her boyfriend is going to beat the living shit out of Walt and probably kick her ass out of the apartment..it's just a matter of time...He thinks he is all bad and cool cause of his little girlfriend...Personaly myself i don't have a probblem dating younger people...Nothing under 30 yrs old...Why?...Because thats my choice
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My Adventure at the sports Bar
Barbara April 13th, 2009 6:05 pm MDTSo today was my day off from work....Didn't do to much of anything...Didn't eat anything all day long except for coffee and some bottle water...So while i was in chat today at about 4 pm...i started to get hungry...But of course since I'm a woman i can't decide on Pizza from Jerry and Sals...or a thick juicy steak at a Sports Bar....
But i made the right choice and decided on the steak.....Went to this cool sports bar thats about a 15 minute walk from my house....Went inside and sat at the bar...it wasn't really busy in there and of course the bar staff were all new people..(As Always)...I ordered a kalua and Cream...(I do like those also...I don't always drink Jack Daniels)...Sitting next to me to my right were 2 young guys....they were both drinking beer and taking shots of Jack...one of the guys that was sitting next to me was celebrating his 21st Birthday with his buddy...Birthday Boy decided to slide over to me while i was reading the menu...lol...I must admit he was a cute little young thing....While i was ordering my steak he decided to buy me a shot of Jack and join him and his little friend who was only 22 yrs old
So Guess what?......I did.....i slid over to where they were....they both shook my hand and told me there Names.....Mike is the Birthday boy....and David is the little 22 yr old....we chatted a little manely about my bike that was right there out the window.....Then the 3 of us took our shots....Then Birthday boy decides to order himself a long Island Ice tea....why not....he can...he's 21 today....lol....My food came out...man was it good i love the way they cook your steaks in the kitchen on a fire grill....Outter crust...inside soft and juicy....Yum Yum...
While i was eating...Birthday Boy decides to order all 3 of us another round of jack....so he did...we all took our shot.....soon as i slid to the empty seat next to me to grab a napkin where the salt and Pepper was......Birthday Boy blew his cookies all over the bar...his friend got sprayed...if i didn't move i would of gotten sprayed also......LMAO....This Poor kid probably won't remember anything in the morning....Even thow...i never met these 2 goof balls before in my life....I had a pretty good time with them
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