I would like to send a Heart Felt Thank You to all the People I've met here.Even thou it is only via E-mail(Kellie,Janice Marie,Bobbie)and those I forgot to mention.
I will reach out to everyone even if is only to say "Hi".I'm shy by nature so it is somewhat of a challenge to approach people I don't know.
But I have to ask a question(rofl)I was just wondering,Do any of you Ladies ever answer those guys I see on comment sections leaving their phone numbers?I am just wondering,WTF is up with that?
Anyway,
Have a Wonderfull upcoming week(even if you are a yankees fan)
I just love the fall, with the seasonal changes going full tilt! Nothing like taking a walk on a sunny, blustery day, with my skirt swishing in the breeze and my heels clicking on the pavement!
So Mom comes in today talking about rumors of how I am so confused. Calls me her son and a boy....and how that's who I am, have and always will be no matter what fantasy she presumes I'm living......... The amount of stress this misplacement of soul and body is causing is getting uneccessary. Why does it have to be only the ones who are experiencing the unorthodox things in life the only ones to truly understand how real it is?
I don't normally write journal entries. I'm at a serious crossroads in my life. I'm seriously planning to transition much further. Breast augmentation, FFS, hormones, etc. I want to go to everything but SRS.
I spend all the time dreaming of transitioning further. A couple of major events in my life have changed allowing to me to do this now. I have had a very sucessful career as a man, but at a stage I am wanting to start over as a woman, even if it means giving up quite a bit.
Although I've dressed and wanted to be a girl since age 5 like the rest of us. I don't have this awful feeling as a woman trapped in a man's body. I want to become a "woman" to feel the sexual attraction of men wanting a girl. Yes, I know the term autogynophilia.
Is it wrong to want to transition because that is what drives me? Many seem to say Shemale is a derogatory word maybe because of the sex industry. For me, that is my desire (fetish?). I want to be one of those TS girls advertising her services.
Am I too old? I am concerned I won't look realistic / passable enough and should stayed in a mans body and dressed as a girl sometimes but not as seriously.
If I do breast augmentation, FFS, hormones, is it just the logical progression to SRS? Am I kidding myself I could/should go that far but not fully?
I realize I am being blunt and direct. I know a lot of girls have discussed these same things internally.
I would really advice from girls who have asked themselves these questions and have lived it.
My friend Jackie and I went on summer holiday to northern New York State, Ohio, Indiana, Pennsylvania, and Illinois. We got out of New England just before the floods in Connecticut (7 inches of rain fell in just 4 hours!). I got water in the basement of my house for the first time since I have owned it. Thank God I had friends in the area to check up on the home (they had to wet vac the basement however). It was not much rainwater inside but even an inch can cause a huge problem when it sits around for a few weeks. My neighbors down the hill were not so lucky and had huge problems. There was massive flooding in the town where I live!
We went to Fort Stanwix in Rome, NY and then on to Seneca Falls. There was a lovely canal which Jackie and I spent some time sitting along and having a drink (2nd photo #1). It is ironic that we had picture perfect weather the whole time we were gone. There were sunny, cool days and cool nights.
We made it to Buffalo and Teddy Roosevelt Inaugural Nat. Historic Site (2nd photo #2). This is where Teddy became President after President McKinley was assassinated. President Karen Reeves (what a scary thought!!!) had her picture taken behind the President's desk (2nd photo #3). Notice how I take charge!
The two of us then headed into Ohio to Cuyahoga Valley National Park. A National Park in Northern Ohio? It's not exactly Yellowstone or Yosemite for sure! Jackie took a pic of me (2nd photo #4) on the boardwalk by Brandywine Falls. It was very nice there.
We then headed west to the town of Put-In-Bay, which sits on an island in the middle of Lake Erie reachable only by ferry boat. It was a spectacular day. The boat trip out was nice and the views from the tower in Perry's Victory and International Peace Memorial were breath taking (2nd photo #5). There were too many tourists and I almost took some out with my car. I'm not sure if it was accidental or not!
Nest stop was the Indiana Dunes National Lakeshore. Jackie and I waded into the waters of Lake Michigan (2nd photo #6). The Great Lakes are like the Atlantic Ocean but without the salty smell or feel of saltwater on your bod. We wish we had more time to spend here but we had to make some miles on this day.
We then made it to our hotel in Glenview, Illinois. My friend Jackie T. got ready to have her FFS performed on her by Dr. Mark Zukowski. She was, of course, quite nervous, but she faced the situation with great calm and determination. That's Jackie! You go girl J !!!
On Sunday, June 28th , a couple of days before her surgery, Jackie and I participated in the Chicago GLBT Pride Parade (See the Main Photo). We were on a float sponsored by Dr. Z along with a live rock band. I thought the crowds would be a few thousand. They estimated that the crowds along the route might have reached a million people! As we waved and danced we saw people lined up 20, 30, even 40 deep along the route. There were even people hanging out of apartment windows and on balconies. It was a little overwhelming for a girl from the coast of Maine but it was great fun. What an adrenaline rush! Thanks Dr. Z for the invite and for dinner!
In the next photo (2nd photo #7) I am admiring some interesting sculpture.
The nicest part of this parade was that these huge throngs of diverse people, from every background that you can imagine, were all smiles, respectful, and having a fantastic time. Smiles were the order of the day.
Jackie came through the surgery with flying colors. The next few days did not allow for much sleep for her and for me.I was her care giver and I set a new record of staying awake in hours playing nurse & maid. (I hope she does not sue me for malpractice!!! YIKES!!!). I figure I was awake for two days straight.
Jackie was doing well enough after just four days that we went out to see the fireworks on July 4th in Glenview at the golf course. It was kind of weird to be allowed to sit on the greens with chairs and blankets when normally you would be chased away. The show was great.
The next day I went back to the golf course to take some day time photos of the gold course. Two guys offered to be "male models" for my pics. I didn't know that golfing made guys soooooo HORNY!!!!
We also were lucky enough to be able to visit Brenda Sue in her new condo on the north shore. Jackie was not up for doing much but a few hours out was good for her. Brenda's pad was beautiful. She lives in a nice area along Lake Michigan It is very rural. Hey Annette! This area that you are from is NICE!!!
My only complaint is that Brenda cooked us hamburgers that must have been two pounds each. They were delicious but after all this time I AM STILL FULL! Thanks Brenda, Anne, and Colin!
It was finally time to head back east. We spent an extra day in the Pocono Mountains of Pennsylvania coming back since this return trip was hard on Jackie who was still recuperating from her surgery. By the way she is looking even more beautiful with every passing day! Drop her a line!
The last new pic of me on my page (2nd photo #8) was taken by Jackie at Pocono Downs NASCAR Raceway. This place is massive! We love NASCAR!
We arrived home safe and sound. It was time to crash!
You Girls are some of most honest people i've met.Let me explain:
And excuse some of my words as they are NOT part of my view merely making a point!
I grew up in a time when it was ok to Hate no matter who it was e.g. gay,black,jew,tg,ts you get the picture.
a friend of mine(who i didn't know was gay,i was only 12 and didnt figure it out until i was 30 or so) no kidding.anyway
Then a chance meeting not in person mind you,online.I was surfing the web and and came across a woman(pre-op)about 8 yrs ago,I wont use her name,But we chatted for hours and got to know each other pretty well.Then about 6months later she told me about her upcomming SRS and WOW i was floored,But the way we got along was .........Better than anybody i ever talked with she really undersstood and listened and didnt care about stereotypes.To this day I am thankful to have come in contact with your community and cherish some of the friendships i have come across,anyway
The indicted, impeached and now former Governor of Illinois, Rod Blagojevich, is scheduled to appear on both "Larry King Live" and "Late Night With David Letterman" this evening, Tuesday, February 3, 2009. Maybe he'll get his own show ... any ideas???
Peabody, Massachusetts (15 January-18 January 2009)
First, check out my new album "First Event 2009" which I just posted.
Better late than never, here is my report on First Event 2009 (though after reading this report you may not agree!).
My friend Jackie and I arrived late on Thursday evening at the hotel. Let me tell you it was C-O-L-D! at he door Denise Armel greeted us with a bear hug. Because we were so tired and had worked that day we went to our room, unpacked, and ordered food to be brought in.
On Friday we were up fairly early (9:30 A.M.) I LOVE the Marriott Hotels so we ordered room service for breakfast. The food was exquisite. We attended a couple of seminars and visited with some friends afterwards.
In the evening our intrepid sorority (Sorority Sisters of New England) went out dining in Boston. Tiffany Starr drove one vehicle and I drove my car since it has a kick ass heater. It was 5 degrees out.
Arriving at the No Name Restaurant in our group was Brenda Sue, Tiffany, Jennifer Lane, Jean W. Jackie T., and myself. The crowd inside was light due to the F-R-I-G-I-D weather outside (for me from Maine it was balmy!).
The waiters and waitresses were thrilled to see us all again and remembered when we visited before. I’m not sure if that is good but they did not throw us out so I guess we were acceptable.
The staff was so friendly and nice. We all filled up on delicious seafood dinners (I LOVE SEAFOOD!). After the round of drinks no one felt the cold too.
We met the radio personality Morgan White Jr. (The Man From T.R.V.I.A.) who has a show on WBZ-AM Radio. I think I made his day when I told him that I LOVE to WATCH RADIO! He just shook his head. He is a really nice guy BTW.
Later on we went back to the hotel and visited down in the lobby restaurant/bar. As usual at these events it was hopping!
On Saturday we got up late (10:00 A.M.) and got ready for the day’s festivities. We attended some seminars and met a lot of people that you do not get to see too often during the year (the grind of daily life sort of thing you know).
Jackie actually got a new presenter to come to First Event for the first time (Kathy Perez of Exceptional Voice in Denver, Colorado). She is an awesome lady and KNOWS HER STUFF! She is a board-certified speech pathologist. As one who is an expert in this field (If you do not know why then you do not know me very well!) if you want to feminize your voice or have any vocal issues then you need to go to a professional.
Saturday evening was the Awards Banquet. If you are not a member of the host organization (Tiffany Club of New England) then the awards are about as exciting as watching paint dry on a wall. They host this convention so this is their prerogative.
The dinner was quite tasty. Jean W., Jennifer Lane, Brenda Sue, and Jackie were also in attendance. Unlike last year there was no dancing in the spacious dining room but rather in the exceedingly cramped bar/restaurant. Most of the girls would rather go drink than dance. My observation on this is that is a more of a male pattern than a female pattern. Girls like to dance, guys do not! (Here come the complaints now!).
We danced the night away and then adjourned to the infamous Dr. Z upstairs party. In attendance was the Royal Couple (the plastic dolls). It’s weird how a naked plastic doll just evokes such interest.
In the late evening it was snowing heavily. When Jackie and I got down to the lobby at 10:00 A.M. most participants had bailed. We ate the "Brunch" (Hey! BRUNCH is BR for BREAKFAST and UNCH for LUNCH. Why was there only breakfast food available?) For the price this is a real rip off. I would suggest that if you attend this event in the future that you simply have room service or order in the restaurant.
Jackie and I decided to stay another day and avoid the hassles of the snow. We sat down in the lobby watching the beautifully fallen, flaky snow come cascading down. While chatting with Jamie Dailey and some other girls a big brute of a guy lumbered over and in a hushed voice told us he was coming to First Event. He said he could not get their earlier since he was ill. I have my thoughts on this "illness" but will remain quiet. He left after a couple of hours after we gave him some requested info.
I realized that at 4 P.M. I was still wearing my nametag. I am sure I was the LAST participant to be wearing one for this year!
That evening Jackie and I had a lovely dinner in the restaurant. The hotel was deserted. It was so nice and the staff even came over to visit with us. Later we watched a movie.
On Monday the weather was nice. When I checked out it was amazing to see that the hotel staff had actually shoveled out, and cleared the snow off of my car. Talk about service!
I left for home well satisfied with my "First Event 2009" experience. It has been an EXTREMELY long time since I have been out like this and it was very nice.
It appears that the case of the missing journal entry postings has been SOLVED!
I can see from my own list of the number of journal entries posted on my site that last June 4th was a busy day. I know I have posted quite a few journal entries over the years but not 53 of them!!! I can talk and write alot but . . . . .
Trying to repair the site the guys posted over 30 test entries on my site in just a few hours! When the site recently got repaired these disappearing journal entries suddenly reappeared. I just noticied this and have spent time deleting the test items.
I would suggest that everyone go delete repetative journal/test items to cut down on the clutter.
Thanks Dan & Jon for the great work in making Urnotalone such an awesome place!!! You have proved yourselves again!
It is that time of year and yesterday's/today's snowstorm just seems to add to the festive mood of Christmas. I know that getting ready for the holidays can be stressful and painful.
I enjoy all the bright lights, good cheer, parties, the presents, and Xmas dinner. But let us remember the true meaning of Xmas. It is the day that we celeberate the life of one person and the meaning of what it is to strive and have a better planet to live on.
Enjoy your holidays no matter your belief system!!!!!
I hope that all of you have a great Thanksgiving. We all have, though it may not seem that way many times, so much to be thankful for. The next time you get down emotionally remember that things could be a whole lot worse. Many people are in that predicament.
Ok, so perhaps like many of you, it's such a rush when we 1st get here. Like that 1st pair of "perfect" pumps that lift you up in so many ways. We get breathless (for some it's the altitude, I mean really 12" heels...?) For others, we just try to do to much to quickly.
Writing has always been a means for me to catch my breath. Take a moment and reflect. I know I'm more at peace now. More comfortable in my skin so to speak. Are there times I think more about further changes? Yes, but then I realize that I have changed. The physicality of being trans is still a huge part of my psyche (word?, yes but not in the way you may think) In Roman mythology, Psyche was a beautiful young woman who was loved by Cupid and ultimately made immortal by Jupiter. Cupid visited her secretly at night, forbidding her ever to look at him. When she did, he abandoned her, but they were eventually reunited.
So, what does it mean. It means, I love being Dianne physically of course. I like looking at her(me)...still confused by that, but more and more I just like feeling like her (being a feminine soul). I can and am Dianne, even when I'm not dressed.
I hope to be around more and able to expand my contact with those who have reached out to me already. I'm sorry if it seems one minute I'm there, then I'm not. I promise to put more of me into our future meetings, whether there by letter or by IM (I'm going to figure that out I promise that too!)
For now, enough already. Hugs and Kisses to all my sisters! Hope you'll accept my mea culpa and give me a hug back!
Well... I finally got the nerve to post some photos of me dressed! Unfortunatly thye could be better. This afternoon, I played hookey from work and took some more photos that will hopefully be much better. I hope to get them posted before the weekend!
After trying to hide my CD self for over 45 years, I want to give Geena more freedom! It's not going to happen overnight, and I am willing to proceed slowly, cautiously, towards becoming more than I am now. Fortunately my wife and soul mate of 35 years knows about my CD side, and although she doesn't embrace it, she at least understands why I do it, and that if anything, it has strengthened our marriage. Please know that even though I love to dress and become Geena for short periods, I do not want to permanently become her, as I am comfortable with my male self (most of the time anyway).
A currently have at last 24 very feminine outfits that range from dresses to skirt sets. I only love dresses and skirts when I dress, and only if they are between calf length and just below the knee. To go with these outfits, I have about 16 pair of shoes. The heels range from 2-1/2" to 4" and are of various styles and colors. As for lingeire, I have two dozen panties, 6 bras, combinatins of half and full slips, garters and several pair of gartered nylons (as well as thigh top). I hate pantyhose. My dresses and skirts are a size 16 and my shoes are a 9-1/2 (all USA sizes)
In the wig department, I hae two wigs, one long and one short, that closely match my real greay/white hair. Unfortunately, I don't have a great place to store them and when it comes to attempting to style them, I am all thumbs.
In the make-up department, I'm even worse. I did recently purchase some items from the Glamour Botique, and have some luck attepting to apply them, but again Im all thumbs. Hopefully with somw helpful suggestions from my new URNA gal friends, I can make some progress on this. Unfortunatemly, my wife currently doesn't want to be around when Geena is and I am too frightened of going to a botique that specializes in helping CD gals.
Additionally, I've got to take off about 15 to 20 pounds, to hopefully make my facial featues a little less full, and reduce my waist a coupld of inches (currently 25").
Well, this is where I am. I'm happy that I've made the decision to improve how Geena looks! I am also hoping that with this, Geena will grow more conficent in herself!
Thursday July 2nd. I received the offer from the new company last Friday and after a bit of negotiation we made a deal. Then came the hard part, turning in my resignation. As it turned out it was not as bad as I had feared. My boss took it well enough and I now have two weeks to tie up loose ends. August 1st, I start the new job and will fly back to Virginia to get things set up.
We have scheduled the move for August 30th. We will be staying with my daughter and her husband in Colorado Springs for a short time until we find the right home to purchase. We have found quite a few homes listed that are the kind of place we are looking for so we have high hopes of finding the perfect one. Since I will be traveling to Las Vegas once a month we are looking at buying a small condo there at the same time. This would also give us a place to escape to during the winter.
I started saying goodbye to my friends on Saturday, Went out clubbing with two of my best Gurl friends. We had a great time, the club had a great crowd, very mixed and a lot of fun. I think the best part was sitting up until the wee hours of the morning just talking. I am going to miss them a lot.
I may be coming into Denver for a few days the week of the 18th. If I can find some new friends to go out with , I may stay over Friday , but we will ahve to see.
Keeping in touch
Frank October 26th, 2009 8:48 am MDTGood Morning,
I would like to send a Heart Felt Thank You to all the People I've met here.Even thou it is only via E-mail(Kellie,Janice Marie,Bobbie)and those I forgot to mention.
I will reach out to everyone even if is only to say "Hi".I'm shy by nature so it is somewhat of a challenge to approach people I don't know.
But I have to ask a question(rofl)I was just wondering,Do any of you Ladies ever answer those guys I see on comment sections leaving their phone numbers?I am just wondering,WTF is up with that?
Anyway,
Have a Wonderfull upcoming week(even if you are a yankees fan)
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I love the fall!
Geena Beth White October 25th, 2009 11:10 am MDTI just love the fall, with the seasonal changes going full tilt! Nothing like taking a walk on a sunny, blustery day, with my skirt swishing in the breeze and my heels clicking on the pavement!
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why does it have to be like this...honestly god?
Delilah September 24th, 2009 10:03 pm MDTSo Mom comes in today talking about rumors of how I am so confused. Calls me her son and a boy....and how that's who I am, have and always will be no matter what fantasy she presumes I'm living......... The amount of stress this misplacement of soul and body is causing is getting uneccessary. Why does it have to be only the ones who are experiencing the unorthodox things in life the only ones to truly understand how real it is?
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Lexy Alexis Mccloud September 12th, 2009 5:08 pm MDTI realized I spelled it wrong...Duh.
autogynephilia
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At Crossroads
Lexy Alexis Mccloud September 12th, 2009 2:59 pm MDTHi Girls,
I don't normally write journal entries. I'm at a serious crossroads in my life. I'm seriously planning to transition much further. Breast augmentation, FFS, hormones, etc. I want to go to everything but SRS.
I spend all the time dreaming of transitioning further. A couple of major events in my life have changed allowing to me to do this now. I have had a very sucessful career as a man, but at a stage I am wanting to start over as a woman, even if it means giving up quite a bit.
Although I've dressed and wanted to be a girl since age 5 like the rest of us. I don't have this awful feeling as a woman trapped in a man's body. I want to become a "woman" to feel the sexual attraction of men wanting a girl. Yes, I know the term autogynophilia.
Is it wrong to want to transition because that is what drives me? Many seem to say Shemale is a derogatory word maybe because of the sex industry. For me, that is my desire (fetish?). I want to be one of those TS girls advertising her services.
Am I too old? I am concerned I won't look realistic / passable enough and should stayed in a mans body and dressed as a girl sometimes but not as seriously.
If I do breast augmentation, FFS, hormones, is it just the logical progression to SRS? Am I kidding myself I could/should go that far but not fully?
I realize I am being blunt and direct. I know a lot of girls have discussed these same things internally.
I would really advice from girls who have asked themselves these questions and have lived it.
Thanks girls. Lexy
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July 09: Chicago GLBT, Vacation & Jackie's FFS
Karen Reeves July 26th, 2009 3:55 pm MDTMy friend Jackie and I went on summer holiday to northern New York State, Ohio, Indiana, Pennsylvania, and Illinois. We got out of New England just before the floods in Connecticut (7 inches of rain fell in just 4 hours!). I got water in the basement of my house for the first time since I have owned it. Thank God I had friends in the area to check up on the home (they had to wet vac the basement however). It was not much rainwater inside but even an inch can cause a huge problem when it sits around for a few weeks. My neighbors down the hill were not so lucky and had huge problems. There was massive flooding in the town where I live!
We went to Fort Stanwix in Rome, NY and then on to Seneca Falls. There was a lovely canal which Jackie and I spent some time sitting along and having a drink (2nd photo #1). It is ironic that we had picture perfect weather the whole time we were gone. There were sunny, cool days and cool nights.
We made it to Buffalo and Teddy Roosevelt Inaugural Nat. Historic Site (2nd photo #2). This is where Teddy became President after President McKinley was assassinated. President Karen Reeves (what a scary thought!!!) had her picture taken behind the President's desk (2nd photo #3). Notice how I take charge!
The two of us then headed into Ohio to Cuyahoga Valley National Park. A National Park in Northern Ohio? It's not exactly Yellowstone or Yosemite for sure! Jackie took a pic of me (2nd photo #4) on the boardwalk by Brandywine Falls. It was very nice there.
We then headed west to the town of Put-In-Bay, which sits on an island in the middle of Lake Erie reachable only by ferry boat. It was a spectacular day. The boat trip out was nice and the views from the tower in Perry's Victory and International Peace Memorial were breath taking (2nd photo #5). There were too many tourists and I almost took some out with my car. I'm not sure if it was accidental or not!
Nest stop was the Indiana Dunes National Lakeshore. Jackie and I waded into the waters of Lake Michigan (2nd photo #6). The Great Lakes are like the Atlantic Ocean but without the salty smell or feel of saltwater on your bod. We wish we had more time to spend here but we had to make some miles on this day.
We then made it to our hotel in Glenview, Illinois. My friend Jackie T. got ready to have her FFS performed on her by Dr. Mark Zukowski. She was, of course, quite nervous, but she faced the situation with great calm and determination. That's Jackie! You go girl J !!!
On Sunday, June 28th , a couple of days before her surgery, Jackie and I participated in the Chicago GLBT Pride Parade (See the Main Photo). We were on a float sponsored by Dr. Z along with a live rock band. I thought the crowds would be a few thousand. They estimated that the crowds along the route might have reached a million people! As we waved and danced we saw people lined up 20, 30, even 40 deep along the route. There were even people hanging out of apartment windows and on balconies. It was a little overwhelming for a girl from the coast of Maine but it was great fun. What an adrenaline rush! Thanks Dr. Z for the invite and for dinner!
In the next photo (2nd photo #7) I am admiring some interesting sculpture.
The nicest part of this parade was that these huge throngs of diverse people, from every background that you can imagine, were all smiles, respectful, and having a fantastic time. Smiles were the order of the day.
Jackie came through the surgery with flying colors. The next few days did not allow for much sleep for her and for me.I was her care giver and I set a new record of staying awake in hours playing nurse & maid. (I hope she does not sue me for malpractice!!! YIKES!!!). I figure I was awake for two days straight.
Jackie was doing well enough after just four days that we went out to see the fireworks on July 4th in Glenview at the golf course. It was kind of weird to be allowed to sit on the greens with chairs and blankets when normally you would be chased away. The show was great.
The next day I went back to the golf course to take some day time photos of the gold course. Two guys offered to be "male models" for my pics. I didn't know that golfing made guys soooooo HORNY!!!!
We also were lucky enough to be able to visit Brenda Sue in her new condo on the north shore. Jackie was not up for doing much but a few hours out was good for her. Brenda's pad was beautiful. She lives in a nice area along Lake Michigan It is very rural. Hey Annette! This area that you are from is NICE!!!
My only complaint is that Brenda cooked us hamburgers that must have been two pounds each. They were delicious but after all this time I AM STILL FULL! Thanks Brenda, Anne, and Colin!
It was finally time to head back east. We spent an extra day in the Pocono Mountains of Pennsylvania coming back since this return trip was hard on Jackie who was still recuperating from her surgery. By the way she is looking even more beautiful with every passing day! Drop her a line!
The last new pic of me on my page (2nd photo #8) was taken by Jackie at Pocono Downs NASCAR Raceway. This place is massive! We love NASCAR!
We arrived home safe and sound. It was time to crash!
*Kisses*
~Karen~
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Admirers thoughts
Frank April 7th, 2009 7:56 am MDTHey All,
You Girls are some of most honest people i've met.Let me explain:
And excuse some of my words as they are NOT part of my view merely making a point!
I grew up in a time when it was ok to Hate no matter who it was e.g. gay,black,jew,tg,ts you get the picture.
a friend of mine(who i didn't know was gay,i was only 12 and didnt figure it out until i was 30 or so) no kidding.anyway
Then a chance meeting not in person mind you,online.I was surfing the web and and came across a woman(pre-op)about 8 yrs ago,I wont use her name,But we chatted for hours and got to know each other pretty well.Then about 6months later she told me about her upcomming SRS and WOW i was floored,But the way we got along was .........Better than anybody i ever talked with she really undersstood and listened and didnt care about stereotypes.To this day I am thankful to have come in contact with your community and cherish some of the friendships i have come across,anyway
I guess what i'm trying to say is hate is taught
Love Is Love between two human beings
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Time to help out others
Frank April 4th, 2009 7:59 am MDTHi Everyone,
Do or can we support causes on this communinty?if not im sorry for posting this
But Please take a look.
www.foodforfurryfriends.com
www.anyloosechange.com
Thank you for your consideration
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Blagojevich Media Blitz Continues Tonight
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First Event 2009: Karen Reeve's Thoughts
Karen Reeves February 2nd, 2009 8:57 pm MSTFirst Event 2009:Some Thoughts
Peabody, Massachusetts (15 January-18 January 2009)
First, check out my new album "First Event 2009" which I just posted.
Better late than never, here is my report on First Event 2009 (though after reading this report you may not agree!).
My friend Jackie and I arrived late on Thursday evening at the hotel. Let me tell you it was C-O-L-D! at he door Denise Armel greeted us with a bear hug. Because we were so tired and had worked that day we went to our room, unpacked, and ordered food to be brought in.
On Friday we were up fairly early (9:30 A.M.) I LOVE the Marriott Hotels so we ordered room service for breakfast. The food was exquisite. We attended a couple of seminars and visited with some friends afterwards.
In the evening our intrepid sorority (Sorority Sisters of New England) went out dining in Boston. Tiffany Starr drove one vehicle and I drove my car since it has a kick ass heater. It was 5 degrees out.
Arriving at the No Name Restaurant in our group was Brenda Sue, Tiffany, Jennifer Lane, Jean W. Jackie T., and myself. The crowd inside was light due to the F-R-I-G-I-D weather outside (for me from Maine it was balmy!).
The waiters and waitresses were thrilled to see us all again and remembered when we visited before. I’m not sure if that is good but they did not throw us out so I guess we were acceptable.
The staff was so friendly and nice. We all filled up on delicious seafood dinners (I LOVE SEAFOOD!). After the round of drinks no one felt the cold too.
We met the radio personality Morgan White Jr. (The Man From T.R.V.I.A.) who has a show on WBZ-AM Radio. I think I made his day when I told him that I LOVE to WATCH RADIO! He just shook his head. He is a really nice guy BTW.
Later on we went back to the hotel and visited down in the lobby restaurant/bar. As usual at these events it was hopping!
On Saturday we got up late (10:00 A.M.) and got ready for the day’s festivities. We attended some seminars and met a lot of people that you do not get to see too often during the year (the grind of daily life sort of thing you know).
Jackie actually got a new presenter to come to First Event for the first time (Kathy Perez of Exceptional Voice in Denver, Colorado). She is an awesome lady and KNOWS HER STUFF! She is a board-certified speech pathologist. As one who is an expert in this field (If you do not know why then you do not know me very well!) if you want to feminize your voice or have any vocal issues then you need to go to a professional.
Saturday evening was the Awards Banquet. If you are not a member of the host organization (Tiffany Club of New England) then the awards are about as exciting as watching paint dry on a wall. They host this convention so this is their prerogative.
The dinner was quite tasty. Jean W., Jennifer Lane, Brenda Sue, and Jackie were also in attendance. Unlike last year there was no dancing in the spacious dining room but rather in the exceedingly cramped bar/restaurant. Most of the girls would rather go drink than dance. My observation on this is that is a more of a male pattern than a female pattern. Girls like to dance, guys do not! (Here come the complaints now!).
We danced the night away and then adjourned to the infamous Dr. Z upstairs party. In attendance was the Royal Couple (the plastic dolls). It’s weird how a naked plastic doll just evokes such interest.
In the late evening it was snowing heavily. When Jackie and I got down to the lobby at 10:00 A.M. most participants had bailed. We ate the "Brunch" (Hey! BRUNCH is BR for BREAKFAST and UNCH for LUNCH. Why was there only breakfast food available?) For the price this is a real rip off. I would suggest that if you attend this event in the future that you simply have room service or order in the restaurant.
Jackie and I decided to stay another day and avoid the hassles of the snow. We sat down in the lobby watching the beautifully fallen, flaky snow come cascading down. While chatting with Jamie Dailey and some other girls a big brute of a guy lumbered over and in a hushed voice told us he was coming to First Event. He said he could not get their earlier since he was ill. I have my thoughts on this "illness" but will remain quiet. He left after a couple of hours after we gave him some requested info.
I realized that at 4 P.M. I was still wearing my nametag. I am sure I was the LAST participant to be wearing one for this year!
That evening Jackie and I had a lovely dinner in the restaurant. The hotel was deserted. It was so nice and the staff even came over to visit with us. Later we watched a movie.
On Monday the weather was nice. When I checked out it was amazing to see that the hotel staff had actually shoveled out, and cleared the snow off of my car. Talk about service!
I left for home well satisfied with my "First Event 2009" experience. It has been an EXTREMELY long time since I have been out like this and it was very nice.
Is Karen back on form? Stay tuned!
*Kisses*
~Karen~
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First Journal Posting 28 Dec 2008
Teri Ray December 28th, 2008 2:18 pm MSTFirst time at posting a journal comment. I havent dressed in ages. I miss it. Hope to have a chance to dress soon. Huggs Teri
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URNA DETECTIVES NEWS FLASH! DAN, JON & THE CASE OF THE MISSING JOURNAL ENTRIES!
Karen Reeves December 27th, 2008 8:54 pm MSTHi Everyone!
It appears that the case of the missing journal entry postings has been SOLVED!
I can see from my own list of the number of journal entries posted on my site that last June 4th was a busy day. I know I have posted quite a few journal entries over the years but not 53 of them!!! I can talk and write alot but . . . . .
Trying to repair the site the guys posted over 30 test entries on my site in just a few hours! When the site recently got repaired these disappearing journal entries suddenly reappeared. I just noticied this and have spent time deleting the test items.
I would suggest that everyone go delete repetative journal/test items to cut down on the clutter.
Thanks Dan & Jon for the great work in making Urnotalone such an awesome place!!! You have proved yourselves again!
*Smiles*
~Karen~
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Merry Christmas 2008 To You All!
Karen Reeves December 20th, 2008 11:51 pm MSTHi Everyone!
It is that time of year and yesterday's/today's snowstorm just seems to add to the festive mood of Christmas. I know that getting ready for the holidays can be stressful and painful.
I enjoy all the bright lights, good cheer, parties, the presents, and Xmas dinner. But let us remember the true meaning of Xmas. It is the day that we celeberate the life of one person and the meaning of what it is to strive and have a better planet to live on.
Enjoy your holidays no matter your belief system!!!!!
*Kisses*
~Karen~
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Heather High Heels November 21st, 2008 8:38 pm MSTSo much for the warm sunny days. It's seems to be cold damp dreery days and nights.LOL
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GOOBLE GOOBLE GOOBLE-Some November Thoughts !
Karen Reeves November 16th, 2008 10:00 pm MSTHi Everyone!
I hope that all of you have a great Thanksgiving. We all have, though it may not seem that way many times, so much to be thankful for. The next time you get down emotionally remember that things could be a whole lot worse. Many people are in that predicament.
Don't each too much turkey!
*Kisses*
~Karen~
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Where have you been Dianne (not Jimmy Dean)
Dianne Elizabeth October 29th, 2008 2:20 pm MDTOk, so perhaps like many of you, it's such a rush when we 1st get here. Like that 1st pair of "perfect" pumps that lift you up in so many ways. We get breathless (for some it's the altitude, I mean really 12" heels...?) For others, we just try to do to much to quickly.
Writing has always been a means for me to catch my breath. Take a moment and reflect. I know I'm more at peace now. More comfortable in my skin so to speak. Are there times I think more about further changes? Yes, but then I realize that I have changed. The physicality of being trans is still a huge part of my psyche (word?, yes but not in the way you may think) In Roman mythology, Psyche was a beautiful young woman who was loved by Cupid and ultimately made immortal by Jupiter. Cupid visited her secretly at night, forbidding her ever to look at him. When she did, he abandoned her, but they were eventually reunited.
So, what does it mean. It means, I love being Dianne physically of course. I like looking at her(me)...still confused by that, but more and more I just like feeling like her (being a feminine soul). I can and am Dianne, even when I'm not dressed.
I hope to be around more and able to expand my contact with those who have reached out to me already. I'm sorry if it seems one minute I'm there, then I'm not. I promise to put more of me into our future meetings, whether there by letter or by IM (I'm going to figure that out I promise that too!)
For now, enough already. Hugs and Kisses to all my sisters! Hope you'll accept my mea culpa and give me a hug back!
Love, Dianne
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Testing 1-2-3-4-
Geena Beth White August 26th, 2008 7:56 pm MDTI have posted two entries within the past week, and they haven't shown up. This is a test for my third attempt.
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New Photos Soon
Geena Beth White August 26th, 2008 7:54 pm MDTWell... I finally got the nerve to post some photos of me dressed! Unfortunatly thye could be better. This afternoon, I played hookey from work and took some more photos that will hopefully be much better. I hope to get them posted before the weekend!
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I want to be more!
Geena Beth White August 24th, 2008 3:20 pm MDTAfter trying to hide my CD self for over 45 years, I want to give Geena more freedom! It's not going to happen overnight, and I am willing to proceed slowly, cautiously, towards becoming more than I am now. Fortunately my wife and soul mate of 35 years knows about my CD side, and although she doesn't embrace it, she at least understands why I do it, and that if anything, it has strengthened our marriage. Please know that even though I love to dress and become Geena for short periods, I do not want to permanently become her, as I am comfortable with my male self (most of the time anyway).
A currently have at last 24 very feminine outfits that range from dresses to skirt sets. I only love dresses and skirts when I dress, and only if they are between calf length and just below the knee. To go with these outfits, I have about 16 pair of shoes. The heels range from 2-1/2" to 4" and are of various styles and colors. As for lingeire, I have two dozen panties, 6 bras, combinatins of half and full slips, garters and several pair of gartered nylons (as well as thigh top). I hate pantyhose. My dresses and skirts are a size 16 and my shoes are a 9-1/2 (all USA sizes)
In the wig department, I hae two wigs, one long and one short, that closely match my real greay/white hair. Unfortunately, I don't have a great place to store them and when it comes to attempting to style them, I am all thumbs.
In the make-up department, I'm even worse. I did recently purchase some items from the Glamour Botique, and have some luck attepting to apply them, but again Im all thumbs. Hopefully with somw helpful suggestions from my new URNA gal friends, I can make some progress on this. Unfortunatemly, my wife currently doesn't want to be around when Geena is and I am too frightened of going to a botique that specializes in helping CD gals.
Additionally, I've got to take off about 15 to 20 pounds, to hopefully make my facial featues a little less full, and reduce my waist a coupld of inches (currently 25").
Well, this is where I am. I'm happy that I've made the decision to improve how Geena looks! I am also hoping that with this, Geena will grow more conficent in herself!
Huggers! --- Geena CD In MA
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Denver Adventure Part 2
Monica Grant July 22nd, 2008 10:04 pm MDTThursday July 2nd. I received the offer from the new company last Friday and after a bit of negotiation we made a deal. Then came the hard part, turning in my resignation. As it turned out it was not as bad as I had feared. My boss took it well enough and I now have two weeks to tie up loose ends. August 1st, I start the new job and will fly back to Virginia to get things set up.
We have scheduled the move for August 30th. We will be staying with my daughter and her husband in Colorado Springs for a short time until we find the right home to purchase. We have found quite a few homes listed that are the kind of place we are looking for so we have high hopes of finding the perfect one. Since I will be traveling to Las Vegas once a month we are looking at buying a small condo there at the same time. This would also give us a place to escape to during the winter.
I started saying goodbye to my friends on Saturday, Went out clubbing with two of my best Gurl friends. We had a great time, the club had a great crowd, very mixed and a lot of fun. I think the best part was sitting up until the wee hours of the morning just talking. I am going to miss them a lot.
I may be coming into Denver for a few days the week of the 18th. If I can find some new friends to go out with , I may stay over Friday , but we will ahve to see.
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