URNotAlone

Looking Forward - Looking Back

December 29th, 2007 1:00 pm MST

Looking Forward, Looking Back

I know it’s passé to do a “year in review” around New Year’s, yet as I look back on this year, I am struck with the magnitude of the changes in my life, and all I can do is shake my head in wonder. At this time last year, things were very different. In my working life, I had just finished my first quarter of nursing school, and the most difficult challenges were yet to come. Socially, I had my head buried in my books, and my life revolved around that. I also still lived in fear of the “Wicked Witch of the North” (aka my ex), and her ablity to "out me" as she had done in the past. Concerning transition, I was at a "tipping point." I was struggling with myself as to whether to start hormones, afraid of it and yet wanting it. Heck, at the time I was even sweating piercing my ears.

Fast Forward 12 months and I’ve graduated, I’m working as a nurse, and I’m beginning to put my life back in order. I’m no longer afraid of anything my ex might do. I’m beginning to date, although not so successfully – yet ;) I’ve met some great people who have become friends. Transition has made me more comfortable in my skin then I ever thought I could be.

The upcoming year however has its possibilities and its challenges. First and foremost, I come into this New Year with a ton of debt that I’m going to have to work my ass off to get rid of. Second, looking ahead, there is a whole ton of money I have to get together for my transition. Finances are going to be a big thing in the coming year. This coming year will also (hopefully) be the year I can finally cut the last ties between me and my ex. This is an event which I am looking forward to with intense anticipation. This year I’ve also resolved to begin to come out to friends and family. All in all, 2008 looks to be an interesting year.