Journal Entries for Kristine Tarcy Holland
Displaced Soul of Inner Beauty
September 4th, 2008 10:15 am MDT
Wed Sept 3rd 2008; Displaced Soul of Inner Beauty: The trappings I have been born into Confine and mottle who I am inside. My outer shell hides the inner beauty I know lay beneath the surface. My inside screams a silent plea of life to be lived My soul though it lives inside me, has lived before and fully in another. It pleads to live there fully again. When I look around I see such beauty in the world, I long to be cause of some of tht beauty. Is tht shallow? Shallow to want outer beauty to reflect The inner beauty tht dwells within? Maybe so. Love is an odd but protective and warming concept It is said you cannot love if you do not love yrself first. Yet I love many things and many people. Do I love myself? A question tht is subjective at minimum. I like certain aspects, however I do not Love the package tht carries this soul, for it matches not. I love and embrace who I am on the inside. If only there could be the matching of inner soul With outer shell, I know I could be cause to Some of tht beauty I have myself witnessed I believe more inner beauty would be allowed To shine through, if I matched inner and outer. If there is a higher power as many claim, and Tht power knows all and has laid out our paths. Why then, does tht power constantly create Outer shells with misplaced souls? These misplaced souls spend specific frames Of time “knowing”, something is askew. Some never figure it out at all. Others find out quickly. Yet even more experience flashes of clarity, Usually fleeting and then buried deep again. Then there are those “who know”, but are trapped. It is like witnessing a crime and not being Able to speak or do anything to prevent it. Those are the souls tht scream to be released. Many times and more than not, it is a silent scream. Other times they are loud and piercing screams. I have heard many souls scream in silence and Tht loud piercing scream, even from with in me. I witness many displaced souls pleading to match Inner with outer because my community Is home to many displaced souls.
APA actually Looking towards helping
August 21st, 2008 1:21 pm MDT
Good news for Gender Variants August 20, 2008 I am liking what I am reading. Especially in the face of my having to stop therapy becuase my insurance does not cover gender issues. I could be so much further ahead. But I see this as a great inroads to ppl like me who do have insurance but cannot take advantage becuase some insurers consider gender issues not real! Click Link below! Maybe copy and paste. http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/118542.php Huggs Kristine
My URNA past notes
June 16th, 2008 6:41 am MDT
I just wanted to move my profile thoughts here so I can keep up for the future. So withour further adu'... Hi; My name is Kristine_holland or Kristine_wnyCD I am a xdresser who is married. I am a huge fan of womans clothing! My wife isn't too comfy yet but getting there with my situation. I do have a website with links to help sites for those having a hard time understanding themselves or for spouces and or S/O's I have been dressing for years but only recently came out to my wife! I hope to meet more in the Buffalo Ny area and many here! Huggs Kristine 11/08/06 I have been contemplating falling off the face of the planet to reappear as a full timer. However, I need support if I am going to be able to do it @ all. So if U would like to be in my corner, please contact me! 08/31/07 As many of my friends know, I am a seasonal girrrl. What tht means is, I shave from Oct to March, during this time I wear stockings, girdles, and panties daily under my work clothes. Also if I get the opportunity I dress enfemme. This last spring I found that even though I was out of season I still continued a very strog web presence. Oct is coming and I am very excited for Kristine season. No matter what season it is outwardly, I am alwasy Kristine in my heart. Huggs Kristine 02/15/08 Over the last few months I have come to know what I have always suspected.. And tht is tht I am definately female on the inside. Currently I am still a seasonal girrl but the Wife and I are about to enter into gender counseling to see if she can deal with much more of waht she has feared these last nine years. I think it was in November tht it really hit me. It is great to peek back in here. And I LQQk forward to whatever is ahead of me. And Thank U Sisters for yr support! Huggs Kristine
Back to URNA
June 4th, 2008 6:24 am MDT
Hi All! I just wanted to say that I am glad to be back after a lengthy hiatus! I stepped away for reasons too many to mention. Although I have always peeked back, I notice so many new faces. Heck even my face is new, ((giggling)). I am still the mother hen type but now it is me who will be requiring some mothering. I suppose I have always known, but this last fall of 07' It finally became crystal clear. I am who I have always suspected but failed to realize. I am Kristine Tarcy Holland. In the past ppl might remember me as Kristine_wnycd or Kristine_Holland... Anyhow here I am and I now am charting my course. I appreciate my friends here and in other places more than I can ever be able to express! Now if I could migrate my 360 Blog to here, life would be even better! Huggs Kristine
