Journal Entries for Lydia Nicole Smith
Coming out to Sister
April 2nd, 2010 8:54 am MDT
COMING OUT TO MY SISTER !!!!!!!!
Well been a long while since I posted a blog.But this is a big step after 17 yrs of not speaking to family after my mother passed away.Which was not anyones fault but a combo of people and issues.Well my Oldest son connected with his cousin on Face Book and then next thing I know we are visiting my niece.Then son comes home on Sunday and says my Younger sister wants to see us all.So I call and we talk and arrange for her to come to our house.I had mixed emotions about it all to start out but also happy.First let me explain this is the sister from my post about my first dressing entry from May 29 2009.Anyway we talked out a lot of personal issues and caught up also laughed about old times for 5hrs.
All night all I could think about was how we use to tell each other everything when we were kids.We were the two youngest out of 7 kids and we always defended each other to the older sibbling.So as the night wore on I made a decision to finally level with her.I took that really big step first I ask do you remember all the things we did together.She said yes and missed it when we haven't talked all this time.I said well part of the reason I pull away is cause of a personal issue been hiding since we were kids.She looked at me strange and said what we told each other everything.I said this I didn't think anyone would understand.But I believe it is time I told you with a long pause she says nothing can be as bad as the drug problem I went thru.So I just opened up and said sis I am Transgender and have known since that day we played dress up in those old prom gowns.Than I rattled on how the wife knows and my sons and they all except me unconditionally.I then waited for her to respond and was surprised when she said it was probably always there and the dress up just bought it to light.Then said if it make you two happy than I am happy for you and I still Love you.I am just sorry you thought you had to hide this all these years from me.I did ask her how she thought our brothers and sister would take the news but also ask her to keep this between us for now.Which she said she wasn't sure about telling them and agreed to keep this between us.That was Last night and I didn't talk to her today giving her time to think on it.I will post a update soon I promise.
the BIG step outside
March 8th, 2008 7:19 pm MST
Entry for March 01, 2008 Well tonight was the big night went out fully dress first time. I was so excited and scaried at the same time. My wife and I talked about it for a few days and we agreed it was time. So we made plans to visit our friend Carol the only TG we have met in person. Worked out everything was going to be a girls night cheese cake and wine. Took two days to deside what to wear but came up with nice pink warm up suit with black top under jacket and white and pink sneakers. Well got all ready thought I should call her surprise she had company pop by. So all dressed up and no where to go I thought the heck with that I am still going out. So we went out and got dinner was a little nervious but lived thru it hehee. I finally settled down after about 30 mins and relaxed. I now understand what so many other girl mean when they say the first time is the hardest. Cause I am looking forward to the next outing already and many more to follow. I am very lucky I had my loving wife to share this adventure with me.Will try to keep postings up to date Huggzzzzzzzzzz
