URNotAlone

After A Week on URNA

March 24th, 2007 9:42 pm MDT

One week has past since I set up my profile.  8 pictures, 10 rating votes, several contacts and 2 friends … I would say that was a good start.  Love the support and feedback and seeing others like myself.  Besides seeing the reaction of others I have begun to examine myself.  Until now, only one person beside myself knew about my dressing, my brother.  His reaction was intrigue and perhaps slight interest followed by quick denouncing.  I believe he referred to it as “cross-dressing faggotry”.  While I think his real problem was the questions raised in his own mind he was also concerned about his own image should I be discovered back in our teen years.  Well we are at least 500 miles apart now so that’s that.  Does he know about me on URNA? No, Would he be happy if he found out? No, Do I really care? Not really.  As for myself, my interest in dressing up until about 4 years ago was purely for self-gratification.  Since then I began to realize that there is more to it, or perhaps it evolved.  My presence on URNA is in a way placing all of the pieces of the puzzle together in one place.  I am beginning to see that a female persona exists in me.  Does this mean that I want to go on HRT (the do it yourself method) or have plastic surgery or give up my current life to pursue or imitate another life? NO!!!! Though I regretfully have to admit that about three years ago I took Black Cohosh, Vitex, and Progesterone Cream as an attempt at exploring feminization for a month.  Thankfully, I grew beyond this with no negative health consequences (at least so I think). What it does mean for me is that I have a lot more to explore in life and for that my life will be richer.  That’s it for now