URNotAlone

What next?

July 14th, 2008 3:09 pm MST

OK, i knew this was going to be hard when i started this road.  Just does not make it any easier when things go wrong.  Have a Birthday comming up and i am totaly dreading it.  Because with have to deal with family who has let it be known i am making a huge mistake.  Most of my life they have been the safty net, so know on the high wire without the net.
Also since i been so busy have lost track of so many people, this weekend came from a suport group where felt like a stranger.  So where does one go to make friends?  Allways been a problem for me, and changing genders does not help.  Far from a bar person, so tend not to hang out there.  There is the online world but most tend to be away from me, or the ones that wish to meet well want to do something physical.  Sure there are many like me that you see at a party hiding by the wall.  You have to know me for a while, for me to feel safe to come out of my shell.  Sadly this sometimes has the appearnce of being aluft.
Does not help that all the mental anguest is causing me to physicaly get sick.  (If you do not think one can effect the other that is a major mistake)  Anyway figure this too will pass, but the question is when and where.