URNotAlone

Short synopsis - My life

April 11th, 2006 6:56 am MDT

Here are some details of my life. ... you ought to know a little more about who I am. . In my life: Once I was a musician, during high school and college years. I was only "just adequate", but able to work and pay my own expenses during that period of time. After college I became a mechanical engineer and designer for several years until I entered management positions. I was even a vice president of a quite large company forseveral years, but that career vector was cut short by an auto accident. After the auto accident, I had a difficult time remembering my educational background, and had to start business all over again, this time as a mechanical technician. I progressed as I began to remember my schooling and eventually became a manager again - many years later. Before the accident, I lived in a suburb of Los Angeles California , just 300M from the beach of the Pacific ocean. It was a little bit of heaven, there. I was married, owned a home, brought up a daughter, divorced, then became a free and wild(?) bachelor. I had a good bit of money and pursued activities of dating, skiing, and driving desert dune buggies. I did enjoy building cars very much, and eventually went into business rebuilding VW engines and building desert racing engines for a short time. In my late forties, I retired, having been a good saver and investor in property. After a few years of relaxing and having a good time, I began a new career, in computers. Because of the accident, I was not as bright as I once was, however I did not clearly understand that - I really thought I was very intelligent, but that was only an idea in my own head - I truly had some limitations as a result of the accident. I have been an average performer in the computer network engineering business for several years, and have finally recently retired again. I like being retired, very much! Everyone asks how I find enough things to keep me occupied, but I am busy nearly all of the time. There is emailing, having meals and coffees with friends, going to meetings of some groups I belong to. I build computers for friends and attend to their problems.  I love to watch television, having mucho channels to choose from - most are not very good however, but there is a lot to enjoy. And there was a lot of time for me to do other things too. I spent 2 years in the Video business, starting off to help a friend and his wife make videos. I eventually became operations manager and also did all of the accounting. And when we were not shooting videos, I was a carpenter, electrician, lighting assistant, camera assistant, and editing technician. I did a little bit of everything in the production and distribution of videos. What kind of videos, you might ask? Wheee - Adult, porno. BDSM. And that's the truth! My friend’s wife had been a Porno video star for several years. She had won many awards and was a regular at the Cannes Film Festival! Beautiful and very sexual, she had a lot to sell in the entertainment industry! Our company’s videos were basic porn, XXXX rated, and included a lot of SM and bondage. I would never have chosen that as a field of endeavor, but it just happened that way. I always had the opportunity to walk away from it - but I stayed. It was stimulating and very exciting, even though as a business, it was very difficult work - the business end of things, I mean. I was not one of the actors - tho it may have been a lot of delights! This is fairly important: My whole life, I had always been interested in the SM and Bondage aspects of sensual behavior, and the video opportunity really opened my eyes to what I found to be a wonderful, delightful and beautiful aspect of life. Since that time, that part of me, BDSM, has emerged and has become a functional part of my sensual life. I am so attracted by the notions of a female body, secured by ropes or chains, touched and massaged and teased and loved into very high levels of sexual pleasure. I love that so much that it is something that I have to make very clear to anyone I would be close to. In personal relations, I am a gentle and soft person. I would never impose my will on anyone, trying to entice them into doing anything they did not want to do. In the general sense, if it is not pleasure for both of us, we simply would not do it. The sensuality of BDSM seems to be an essential part of who I am, and it would be wrong for me to think of a romance with one who did not also find these notions to be exciting. Love, Richard