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Daniele xoxo

Hmm, lots of stuff, Went to the Day of Rememberance last night at the methodist church.  we really have some great people here in cowlumbus.  I can't believe our Rep Dan Stewart (sp?)  I was really impressed with him speaking.  Oh, and very down to earth and friendly too.

have a session with Meral in a bit to sort some stuff out.  Anyone local here is lucky to have her as a resource ! 

crap, speaking of.. need to shower !  crap !  LOL

kristy joe ...

The show i did this monday nite was called Trampoline Hall (they have a website). The format of the show is they have three guest lecturers that guve a lecture on something they know about but are not experts at. After each person speaks then with the help of a moderator the floor is open to the audience, which numbered 137, to ask questions. I was the last to go on. so there i am on stage with lights and a microphone and the moderator just sitting to the side. I had chosen to speak about the word 'transition'. I started out by explaining that transition ment change but in a large capacity. I also spoke about the hands of fate and the opportunites they give us and how many events get connected. Hal way thru i started to speak about my heart attack and then therapy and then finding i was transgendered two spirit and all the transitions i had annd was going thru. the audience sat in rapt attention as i spoke. At the end there were a large number of questions that i answered the best i could. and after the show a lot of people wanted to talk to me.  So 137 complete strangers have now met a transperson and know that i am just the same as them.

Tina Leigh

Well surviving with this side of me has some better days and some rougher ones. today is one of many when life keeps piling on and I just want to get away spend some time on something purely fun, purely for me. But guilt and stress even rob that of promise and so unhappiness and anxiety settle in. Been having some conversations on line some I probably shouldn't but need to have some contact with someone who knows what it is like and what it is to want to be liked. Yes right now if I was  GG I would be one needy slut possssibly. I don't have a plan but to take it day by day and keep as many as possible from getting messed up in this thing that is mine alone. Don't mean to cry publicly but also want to be honest since many of us have similar problems and some of us have made a choice to be where we are for reasons to us. and the rough days are the ones we feel alone about and question our durability. I know maybe it is silly to try and hold some sort of integrity in secret and silent suffering for others benifit but most the time it does feeel right. I won't give up but i have to also be willing to accept the silence imposed by not moving forward, not dressing, not going out and be content to know the mental state is ok not fake and not some horrible thing. I have had thoughts more odd than normal for me and most I cannot consciously say I understand or accept as what I really want. I think they are like a crazed animal lunging at anything near, any path right or wrong is tried only later to see the error in the errant success. So it is safe in the head, maybe more that the world but then thats where hope lives eternal. Take care girls. Tina

Judit Roura

Going out this Saturday, in Barcelona. Some friends and I got invited in a Birthday party of a GG friend. I'm excited!

Cindy

This is just a thought for the day.  Something I was thinking about.  When I go out dressed I like to look sexy and alluring.  I get good compliments, but it is strange still.  Do any of you gurls go out and maybe don't realize you look sexy.

I think we gurls and all girls judge themselves to harshly.  We all probably look better then we think.  Then this comes to another probelm.  If a gentleman is giving you attention, how to act?  I have not been a woman as long as real women, so I am not so skilled at begin demure.  Also since I"m not 24/7 I cannot go on a few dates in a week or two to build a relationship.  Some girls wait a while before being intimate, others don't. 

How are you suppose to know, this is a good person?  Are they safe? Disease free?  Drug Free?  What have been some of your exerpiences.  Also you admires, how have you felt we gurls acted.  Do like it when they super slutty or do you then think they won't be faithful in a relationship, or do like to take is slow to build the relationship, so intimancy can be more meaningful.

I am going through a lot of new feelings, and I like to be naughty, but I still want to be a lady too.  The balance is something I think I will learn over time.

Huggs all,

Cindy

Teresa Bowers

B: I really, really want to order your Beauty School CD Miss Teresa, but I cant risk having it sent to my house! I am so afraid of my wife finding out! I only go to your website when she's not home, and then I clear all the history! Now she's been asking me why I'm doing this! I have to have it-its my complete fantasy! What can I do?

: GET A GRIP! What are ya, a sissy? Oh yea. How old are ya kid?

B: I'll be 47 next month.

: Listen kid, I have a plan. Now shut up and pay attention. First of all its a download, not an actual CD that would be sent to your house. I send it to your email, see?

B: Oh, I didn't realize that. But my wife!

: SHUDDUP!

Now the first thing ya wanna do is download Firefox. You can have it clear your history every time you sign off, it even asks ya?

B: But...

: SHUDDUP!

Now you're gonna get an email in another name see? They're all free, just pick a name and remember it. If ya want, ya can write the name and password in a book that nobody reads, get it?

B: Yes Miss Teresa.

: You can use a credit card, or if you're still yeller, an e-check. No traces. Then I send the file to this email that nobody knows about, see?

B: Wow you're really good at this.

: Yea, I been around.

B: But what about downloading and saving the file? How can I hide it?

: Here's what you're gonna do. Ya download it when no ones around, and save it in a folder. Ya name the folder like another one, but add a letter. Then you put that folder in a different folder that never gets used, see?

B: But what if she finds it and listens?

: Ok, lets play it safe. Ya burn it onto a blank CD and stash it somewhere. Drive out to the dessert, get comfy and play it in your car.

B: Not bad, you're very sneaky.

: Thanks kid, but I'm only helpin ya cause this stuff is harmless. So ya like to wear panties and prance around like Cinderella? Who gives a flyin rats ass?

B: My wife actually.

: YER A SISSY! Oh yea, that's what this is about huh? Well, there ya go kid. Now ya can have a party in your pants. Play some pocket pool, adjust the antenna, baste the ham, badger the witness, buff the banana, cuff the carrot, flog the dolphin, milk the moose, oil the glove, rope the pony, yank the yo-yo, knock yourself out.

Just one more thing. Yer not gonna do anything illegal are ya? Anything strange or sick?

B: Oh Lord no Miss Teresa, I just want to wear pretty things and act like a beautiful girl.

: That's what I figured. This conversation never took place, ya hear? Now go grow a pair.

B: Thank you Miss Teresa, but I don't want to grow a pair because...

: SHUDDUP!

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Disclaimer: I do not normally talk like this. I am in no way encouraging anyone to do anything illegal or immoral. Its just that in my experience many crossdressers do not want their friends and family discovering their little fetish. Right Mr. Madoff?

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Kendra Dahling

     So URNA? It has been a long time!  How I have missed you!  My life over the last couple of years has been hectic to say the least! I haven't been able to go out ONCE in over two years due to RL constraints.  My poor shoes and wigs are just gathering dust in my closet!  Well no more!  Kendra is cracking out the blush brush once again! 

     I have lost track with the local T girl scene in Regina and kick myself over it.  There are lots of supportive girls here in the Queen City.  I hope to catch up with you all once again and hopefully meet some new girls!  Talk to you all soon!  It's good to be back!

Sincerly,

Ms. Kendra Dahling

Jackie Lee

Life is so good! Each day is a fresh experience. A new dress, maybe new shoes, seeing if this goes with that . A feeling of anticipation of new girl friends. Thanks to all that have viewed my profile, and a special thank you to all that have become my friends. I look forward to tomorrow, to a new life. Sincerely, Jackie

Christine ...

I had a wonderful experience today at MAC Cosmetics.  MAC has always been known for being friendly to the community and their store at Crocker Park on the west side of Cleveland is certainly no exception.  I was treated wonderfully by everyone and thoroughly enjoyed myself.

By the way, for any of you new or shy gals out there who are thinking that this took a lot of courage on my part - it turns out that it really didn't.  I'm pretty timid and even *I* felt comfy after a few minutes - and it's amazing what a phonecall in advance to break the ice did for everyone involved.

The key to my "courage" was being very up-front so they (and I) had no surprises.  I called them beforehand and asked 1) if they did makeovers and 2) whether they were accepting of the transgendered community.  I was pretty sure I already knew the answer to both questions but this gave the woman on the phone a chance to mentally adjust to the fact that a guy was on the phone with her making an appointment for a makeover.

Once that was out of the way, I set up an appointment with her for a private back room.  That was another question I asked beforehand...I'm SOOOO not ready to be transformed in front of an audience!

I got there a little early, en-drab, and asked for Diana.  As far as the rest of the world knew I was just a salesman/husband/etc.  I brought an exercise bag with a couple of wigs that I thought would help her get a feel for how I look, help pick colors, etc.  I also brought a camera - although I was careful NOT to be an imposition with it.  When Diana brought me back to get started, I just asked if I could take a few photos along the way to help me remember.  She sais 'No problem.'

As we got rolling she asked lots of questions about colors I liked, gave me tips for getting foundation to look natural, etc.  I was still a little nervous but she was very outgoing and professional.  At each step, she'd do the right side and then have me do the left while she watched and gave feedback.  By the end of the session we were both very comfortable.  She was suggesting colors and 'hey, how about if we try this.'  I even forgot to take pictures until she reminded me and we snapped off a few.  I'd worn a light halter dress under my guy-stuff so a quick unbuttoning of the shirt (with advance warning - don't scare the natives girls!) let us do couple waist-up photos of me "fully" en-femme.

All-in-all, this was the best $100 I've spent in a long time.  90 minutes of undistracted fun.  I'll definitely go back and I hope next time that I can go out afterwards instead of having to clean everything off at the end & leave all that hard work in a pile of wipes :(

If any of you local gals are thinking about this, I'd encourage you to give the Crocker Park store a call and ask for Diana.  Tell her I sent you - maybe I'll get some free lipstick on my next visit for the referal, LOL

Hugs!  - Christine